I SHOULD NOT HAVE KISSED JADEN!
I am really starting to regret making a move on him. Things are now weird between us.
Today I acted so weird around him. Honestly, even my own behaviour is really shocking me.
Like the coward I am , I left drama club and decided to join chess club and at chess club I found Jaden.
Well, that would not be a surprise because Jaden is really good at chess so it makes sense for him to join the club.
But what does not make sense is why I decided to join when I suck.
Anyways, I had no option but to go for chess club but now I feel like I need to go back to drama club .
I can't be near Jaden, it makes me feel weird. By weird I mean a combination of happiness, nervousness and awkwardness .
I not only feel weird but when I am around him ;I feel very shy.
Well, that is not a surprise to me because of how socially awkward I am, but I feel like I have been hanging around Jaden long enough not to feel uncomfortable around him.
I not only feel weird around him but I also get this sudden fear when I am next to him. I want to be next to him but again, I want to run.
As if that is not enough, I have this constant urge to want to look at him. Well, everyone does want to see someone but for me, it is different . It's like I really want to see him to notice him. To get to see into his soul.
It is really strange to me because I literally fell just because of staring at him.
I was trying to get a chair to sit on but because I was too busy staring at Jaden, I bumped into something that sent me to the ground. I hit my forehead and then everyone was so concerned they all came up to me to help me up.
Jaden even came closer to me to rub some ointment on my forehead. I know I didn't mean to embarrass myself like that but when Jaden was close to me, I felt like it was a good idea to hit my head.
He looked like he really cared, like he was genuinely concerned about me. I stared at him for a while until he was done.
See what I mean ?
It is so awkward how I am behaving when I am next to him.
I don't know if my behavior is at all related to the kiss.
What if the kiss made me feel like this?
I hope there isn't more to this though.
But why do I feel like there is something I am ignoring?
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𝐃𝐢𝐚𝐫𝐲 𝐎𝐟 𝐀 𝐌𝐢𝐬𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐡𝐫𝐨𝐩𝐞
Teen Fiction𝐓𝐞𝐫𝐫𝐚 𝐀𝐝𝐚𝐦𝐬 has always been the girl that hates humans. Possibly, the only girl that does not believe in love or want anything to do with it. This would be expected of someone that allows her whole life to be governed by a past experience...
