Falling - Bellamy Blake X Reader

Chapter 27

(BELLAMY POV)
this takes place before Bellamy and Y/n run into each other when she's leaving breakfast

Last night was the worst sleep I've ever gotten, not only was I in enemy territory with them all around me but that River guy wouldn't shut up about a girl until he passed out from exhaustion. The parts I did tend to listen to reminded me of someone but I couldn't place my finger on who. I assumed he was talking about the mysterious girl in the cloak because the times I've seen them together they look like they've got something going on between them. Things with that girl just don't add up, with everything River told me about her and the few times I've talked to her I just can't put together on why she feels so familiar. I sit up on the bed to find River still sound asleep. I contemplate waking him up but decide against it because if he's awake they'll probably make him be my babysitter and I don't need a damn babysitter. I quietly slip out of the room and start in a random direction down the hall. While strolling down the lengthly hallway my mind install wanders back to Y/n, any spare second I have I use it to think of her.

The main reason I was so persistent on being the one to come here is in hope of finding her but I should know better then to have hope in such an unlikely thing like that, but I can't help it I miss her more and more everyday. I'm aware I should let her go and stop looking for her but I can't because what if she's out there hurt or even worse, and if she is its all my fault. She ran away because of me. Another reason I can't seem let her go is because no matter what happens I'm still going to be madly in love with her and I need to make sure she knows that even if its the last thing I do. No one has been the same since she left camp, especially Octavia. She will barely even speak to me now and to be completely honest I deserve it. I realize I had been zoning out and not paying attention to where I was going when I bumped into someone.

"Oh shit I'm so sorry." I instantly apologize not even looking at who I bumped into, just knowing I don't want to get more onto their bad side then I already am.

I take a look at who I collided with while they are on the floor only for my eyes to be met with the sight the girl in the cloak lifting herself off the floor. I need to figure out who she is or its going to drive me insane. I hear her mumble something to herself when she catches sight of me but I'm unable to make it out since its quite loud in here. She goes to move past me but I'm quick to block her path, determined to find out who's under that cloak. She politely says something in grounder language which I can only infer its something along the lines of "Please move," but I stand my ground, not moving a single muscle.

"Are you sure I don't know you?" I proceed to ask her even though I know she's not going to tell me the truth even if she did know me.

"I'm not answering the same question twice. I have somewhere to be and I'd appreciate if you so kindly moved out of my way." Is what I get in response.

What seemed to shock me was how similar she sounded to Y/n, I guess her voice didn't click in my head until she started getting sarcastic like Y/n did most of the time. Now that I think of it more I can't help but realize how alike the two are, everything River told me about the girl in the cloak matches Y/n to a t, but its impossible they're actually the same person. My hopes of Y/n being here are getting in the way of me thinking rationally. No matter how bad I want her to be Y/n she just isn't and I need to push that thought aside before I get myself into trouble.

"Where are you going?" I ask, curious on where she's in such a rush to get to.

"None of your damn business." She sharply replies, before I even get to comprehend what's going on she's already down the hall while I'm on the ground.

"This is going to be a long couple of days." I say to no one in particular while I heave myself off the cold floor.

(RIVER POV)
takes place when he wakes up

As I slowly start to come to my senses and wake up I can already tell its later then when I intended to. As my sense fully come back I immediately think back to my plans with Y/n today and jump up, rapidly throwing on the clothes closest to me, hobbling out the door as I try my best to put on my shoes while walking at the same time. As I jog to the dining hall in the search of Y/n I recall how she seems to act weird when Bellamy is around, she thinks I don't take notice but I most certainly do. I may be over thinking it but I'm pretty sure they knew each when she was with the sky people. From what I can tell she doesn't seem to fond him, but Bellamy on the other hand is a different story. I'm almost certain they have some type of history and to say it bothers me would be a huge understatement.

I decided to test my theory out last night by talking my ear off about her without giving away her identity since Lexa ordered everyone not to, which I found I little odd but didn't want to push Y/n on why or pressuring her into talking about her past since its a sensitive subject. The whole time I rambled on about her and Bellamy practically hung onto every word I said but tried his best to hide it, luckily for me I'm great at reading people. I still think he doesn't know who she is which is not only good for the deal but for Y/n too, I don't want him to hurt her again if he turns out to be the dick who cheated on her. If I had actual proof of if he's who I think he is I wouldn't hesitate to kill him but sadly I don't and I'm not a totally irrational person that goes around killing people over a little suspicion. When I get to the dining hall I notice mostly everyone has cleared out which means Y/n isn't here instead she's on her way to training.

I don't have time to beat myself up over the fact I slept in and missed seeing her this morning, I need to find her now before she has time to overthink which I know she tends to do a lot. I sprint in the direction of the arena until I see a familiar figure in the distance. Realizing its Y/n I begin to yell her name in an attempt to get her attention but fail. I quickly jog up to her and lightly tap her shoulder only to result in her to jump at least a foot in the air.

"River you scared me half to death, what the hell is wrong with you?" She irritably questions me, she's definitely not a fan of me at this moment.

"I yelled your name. How did you not hear me?" I ask concerned and confused on how she didn't hear me yelling her name all those times.

"I was thinking." Is the answer I get and all I need to tell me she's already been over thinking.

"Hey, where are you going?" I ask as Y/n begins to walk away from me.

"Like you care." I faintly hear her say causing every muscle in my body to stop working for a moment.

"Why would you say something like that?" I ask not being able to grasp the idea that she doesn't think I care about her.

"Oh I don't know, maybe it's because you stood me up at breakfast, or maybe it's because you don't like me anymore." She shouts at me, I didn't think I could be in anymore disbelief but boy was I wrong because what she just said shocked me to my core. I couldn't respond, I couldn't put how wrong she was into words. Part of me was to shocked to speak but another part of me didn't even know what to say, I seemed to forget any and every word I ever learned. I searched my brain for anything but came up blank, its like my brain hit the reset button. It wasn't until I realized she was crying I knew what to do, like an instinct my body moved on its own to envelop her in a hug she so desperately needed. Her being in my arms just felt right, its like we were made for one another, like the universe moved just so we could be with each other.

But all good things have to come to an end because Y/n began to pull away while starting to ramble, "Look I'm really sorry for blowing up on you, I just, I don't know. I really like you and now you don't like me and I don't know what I did wrong. River I-" I cut her off by placing my lips on hers, I know she wanted to take things slow but this was the only way I could truly prove that I'm absolutely and 100% crazy about her. It seemed to work too because she kissed me back with the same about of passion. Theres no question about it, Ive fallen hard for Y/n L/n.

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yay me i updated! i've also low key fallen in love with River as I've written him so like ya lmaoooo🕺😎✋😛😳😁😧😬😃😭