inside my head

geeeeeh

my new meds are doing great. I'm feeling more like myself but like I've been asleep for a long time and have to shake off all the not me left hanging on.

moody is in the hospital. his parents called me and asked if there was anyway i could help them. they don't know what to do anymore. I told them to just be there and tell him thy accept him. get him on some medicine to help take the edge off of him and get him some sunlight in his room.

i also told them id talk to him about trying a little harder in school and that i wasnt gonna be moving far. just not in petersburg anymore.

Carl was a little pissy about it but he got over it quickly. I'm glad he didn't throw a jealous fit. speaking of Carl things are calming down for us. no so fight-y. hes starting to warm up again now that I'm not struggling so much. i think he likes my new medicine.

His grandma wants to put him on some anger stuff so his bipolar disorder wont be so bad on me and him anymore. I think that would be really nice since I'm starting over in my own way. I could still be weak. I handled myself pretty well this weekend though.

things would be going pretty smoothly actually if it wasn't for what happened to moody and Carl's temper flaring so badly. I think it was just because he was around his mom for a while. they don't get along.

I started watching the walking dead. that's pretty big for me because I'm terrified of zombies. the fact that i stayed calm through the whole thing is a testament to just how well my meds are doing i think. everyone says i seem to be doing much better on these. I like them. I don't feel sick and they don't choke me when i swallow.

i get my tattoo this week. I've been waiting for a long time. i finally have it saved and ready to go. they symbol represents exactly what i need it to.

I think I'm gonna go for now. this helps so much just to be able to write it all down as it pops in my head.

ill probably add more later.

yours truly,

prettykittyears