what lovers do

chapter 17

 What is...Gojo to me?

One question that requires one answer..

Utahime's thoughts ramble on and on, contemplating what exactly is Gojo Satoru to her. And by exactly, it means his essence to her life as a whole. Years ago, he's just an annoying junior who doesn't know how to respect his elders, bragging about himself constantly on being the strongest. It didn't get any better as time went by, in fact, that attitude of his remains the same. He's the same show-off, prideful brat who seems to look for a reaction coming from her every time he tries to strike a conversation. Their bantering and his teasings that she unknowingly miss when he's not around. She had known him for twelve years or maybe more but never did she evaluate what their real connection is. It's hard for her to describe it. They know each other, but she doesn't think that he classifies her as his friend. Friends do catch up from time to time, and they do that, but there's something in their relationship that isn't accurate to say that they are friends and just that. It's bizarre. They're colleagues but they are more than colleagues and it's an understatement to say that they're just colleagues, coworkers, perhaps partners sometimes?

And then it happened.

They had a child together - something that both of them didn't want to happen - but it happened and so they're brought together in the weirdest, sudden, possible way. Utahime didn't expect him to take responsibility - hell, she did not even ask him to take responsibility because she knows it's not something they consent to do. Simply put, it was an accident and yet he stepped forward, and regardless of how surreal the words will be - Gojo stands up and acts like a real man for it. The childish, overpowered, cocky, idiot who teases her for being 'weak' and now the father of her child.

"Gojo is...."

She finds him hard to fathom. His personality aggravates her. His denseness and inability to read someone's feelings - her feelings to be precise, annoys her to no end. Yet it's hard for her to truly dislike him and ignore the budding feelings growing inside. Or was it always there? Something that she didn't realize for a long time until this very moment? Or until this very moment?

He irritates her yet she find it hard to live without him now..

.....my heart calls out for him....

Utahime accepts the truth, giving in to her feelings once and for all. It's just her and her beating heart and suddenly everything makes sense.

Koharu's full attention is on her when the woman's phone rings. She takes the call. It is the librarian asking for her to come to the library after finding out information that will greatly help the situation.

"The librarian said he's deciphering something. Do you want to come with me?"

Utahime nods. She wants to help and it is the only thing she can do right now.

They return to the ground level where the library is. A heavy, black double door with the crest of the Gojo clan carved at the center standing at least nine meters tall and three meters wide greets them. Koharu pushes it with ease showing a massive library with several racks stacked with books. The smell of books and the faint scent coming from the solitary blue and violet flowers near the windows is in the air. Utahime isn't familiar with plants but she can tell that those flowers are unique and special.

"What did you find?"

"It's the timeline, my lady. It says here that the child of the Six Eyes user in Keicho died on the same day when he died." the librarian, an old man in his 60s, wearing black kimono, hunches in front of a rectangular wooden table pointing at an old scripture. Koharu scoots to see it clearly and uses a magnifying glass to decipher it while Utahime peeks beside her.