Paradise (Book One)

Tell Him

I'm scared
So afraid to show I care
Will he think me weak
If I tremble when I speak
Oooh - what if
There's another one he's thinking of
Maybe he's in love
I'd feel like a fool
Life can be so cruel
I don't know what to do

I've been there
With my heart out in my hand
But what you must understand
You can't let the chance
To love him pass you by

Should I

Tell him
Tell him that the sun and moon
Rise in his eyes
Reach out to him
And whisper
Tender words so soft and sweet
Hold him close to feel his heart beat
Love will be the gift you give yourself

Touch him
With the gentleness you feel inside
Your love can't be denied
The truth will set you free
You'll have what's mean to be
All in time you'll see

I love him
Of that much I can be sure
I don't think I could endure
If I let him walk away
When I have so much to say

I'll

Love is light that surely glows
In the hearts of those who know
It's a steady flame that grows
Feed the fire with all the passion you can show
Tonight love will assume its place
This memory time cannot erase
Blind faith will lead love where it has to go

Never let him go

 
 

"Good morning, Asher," bati ng mommy niya sa kanya nang maabutan siya sa kusina.

"Hi Mommy," matamlay na bati niya sa ina.

"Natulog ka pa ba? Mukhang wala ka pang pahinga ah. Sabi ni yaya Luring, alas dos na daw ng madaling araw, may liwanag pa sa kuwarto mo. Magsi-six pa lang, bakit gising ka na agad? Or you did not sleep at all?"

"I did sleep, Ma. Naiwan ko lang bukas pa lampshade. Nakatulog na ako sa pagri-review ng reports para mamaya," nakangiti niyang sabi sa ina.

Another half-truth, half lie. Pang ilang beses na ba siyang hindi nagsasabi ng totoo sa kanyang ina?

It's true that she was reviewing her reports for the presentation later sa board meeting. Pero hindi totoong nakatulog siya sa pagbabasa. The truth was, she hadn't slept at all.

She did not have a decent sleep since that day she talked with Gerald.

And that was exactly three months, two weeks and five days ago.

"You're the daughter of the person I hate the most."

Those words keep repeating on her head.

"You're the person I hate the most."

"I hate the most."

"Hate."

She's supposed to hate him.

And if she hates him, she's not supposed to miss him.

Then what is this feeling she's having now?

Stop it Asher!

She should not entertain any thought about him. Not a single thought!

"I'm sure he's having the time of his life right now. He got what he wanted from you, from your father, therefore, you're no more needed."

"You were saying something, hija?"

"Wala po, Mommy."

"Hija, ayokong umagang-umaga, nagsisintimyento tayo dito. But please, give yourself a break! It's been what, months? Life is very simple, why make it complicated? It's either you love him or you don't. It's either you forgive him totally or let him live with his guilt."