Unhealthy obsession (Haikyuu AU)

Chapter 44

Yamaguchi chewed on his lower lip nervously. He wanted to open up to Terushima, to tell him his own fears. He trusted him, but that didn't make him fearless. He was afraid: afraid of remembering it, afraid that Terushima would reject him after knowing what had happened, afraid that Terushima would find him disgusting, unpleasant. He did not want his boyfriend to feel the same disgust for him that he felt for his own body.

Terushima was about to arrive. Yamaguchi had called him to ask him to come to his house to spend the afternoon together. They had seen the entire Lord of the Rings trilogy, and Yamaguchi had been so amused by the plan that he wanted it to be repeated; but not that day. That day he had to confess what had happened. Even though they had "officially" been dating for only a short time, the reality was that it felt like they had known each other for years. And yet they kept discovering things about each other. Therefore, thanks to that trust that had been built and that seemed solid and firm, Yamaguchi wanted to tell Terushima what had happened that night, a few years ago.

Yamaguchi curled up in the sofa, his arms wrapped around his knees, his cheek pressed against the sofa cushion. It wasn't a comfortable position, but it made him feel less exposed, less... vulnerable.

He was nervous, he felt distrustful and fragile, he wanted help, he wanted support. Shirabu had been with him since it happened, but Yamaguchi felt like it bothered him, and he didn't want to be a burden to his friend, so every time he felt like this he cried silently, in the darkness of his room. But he needed to know that he could count on someone if he needed to, and Terushima always seemed willing to make him smile. He was so sweet...

The bell snapped Yamaguchi out of his reverie. He walked to the door and opened it. Terushima stood in front of him, with his typical smirk, chewing gum, his hair messy, and his eyes shining with affection.

"Hey, freckles-kun, do you have a boyfriend?"

Yamaguchi laughed. "Yeah, sorry. I have a boyfriend."

"What a shame. He must be the luckiest man in the world," Terushima said with a wink.

"You can be sure of it," Yamaguchi said, pulling Terushima inside before closing the door.

They were both close together, face to face, their bodies brushing and their breaths intermingling. Yamaguchi placed a chaste kiss on Terushima's lips and tried to separate again, but Terushima grabbed him by the waist and neck and brought their lips together again. They glided smoothly, lightly catching Yamaguchi's lower lip for gentle sucking. His tongue tasted of mint, and Yamaguchi felt a slight itch, a tingle along with the coolness of the gum. Yamaguchi smiled into the kiss and wrapped his arms around Terushima's neck, holding onto his body and feeling happy and loved.

Terushima broke away from Yamaguchi as they both began to gasp for breath. "Oh, how I missed you," he whispered, hugging him in his arms.

"Your kisses taste like mint," Yamaguchi said giving him a kiss on the cheek.

"If you tell me you don't like mint we're gonna have a problem, because I'm addicted to them," Terushima murmured with a giggle.

Yamaguchi laughed and shook his head, then pulled away from Terushima to grab him by the shoulders.

"I'm glad you've come."

"I always want to see you, Yams," Terushima said.

Yamaguchi smiled and dragged him into the humble living room, where they both sat on the couch. Terushima looked at Yamaguchi with adoring eyes, and the boy blushed with his heart pounding in his chest. He looked at Terushima and smiled, but then he remembered why he had called his boyfriend.