Unhealthy obsession (Haikyuu AU)

Chapter 33

RECOMMENDED SONG: HEAL ME BY LADY GAGA

Yamaguchi pressed the call button on the conctact that was recently added to his address book. His hands were sweaty and shaking but he was ready to do it, he didn't want to delay something that was imminent.

The phone rang twice before someone picked up. "Wassup?" a voice answered.

"H-hi, I'm Yamaguchi," he replied without much confidence. "Am I talking to—?"

"Hey, freckles-kun," Terushima's playful voice said. Yamaguchi thought he heard the smirk rising on his lips. "You finally called, I was waiting for you, y'know? No one ever made me wait."

Yamaguchi smiled with some pride. "There's always a first time," he replied, regaining the confidence and courage that he had more than two weeks ago, on the night he met him.

"I have to admit I like it," Terushima said in a somewhat provocative whisper. "I had a great time the night of the party... Even though nothing happened."

Yamaguchi swallowed hard and chewed on his thumb, feeling self-conscious and somewhat guilty for having created expectations for Terushima that he hadn't been able to fulfill later. "I..."

Yamaguchi didn't know what to say. Should he confess it so quickly? No, that was not an option. It was too embarrassing and painful to go around spreading it. And he didn't know Terushima well enough either, seeing him through the screen didn't count. He didn't know if Terushima would judge him, if he would hate him, or if he would disgust him as much as he disgusted himself. Only Shirabu knew what happened two years ago, and Yamaguchi didn't dare to tell anyone else for fear of being rejected.

"Take it easy, you don't have to hesitate now," Terushima said casually. Yamaguchi silently thanked him for his words. "Still... You'll end up accepting your fate."

"Let me doubt about it," Yamaguchi said with a chuckle.

"I'm gonna tell you a secret," Terushima said. Yamaguchi tensed. "I just winked at you but since this is a phone call, you haven't seen me."

Yamaguchi froze for a moment before bursting out laughing. "I wasn't expecting that secret," he commented with a laugh.

"Yeah, I didn't expect to get to the point of being such an idiot as to wink at a wall, I'm surprised at myself," Terushima replied, rolling his eyes but with the hint of a smile.

Yamaguchi heard a voice on the other end of the phone and then the movement in Terushima's microphone, as if he was covering it with his hand so that Yamaguchi would not hear it. Less than a minute later, Terushima spoke again. "Sorry, freckles-kun, Hana requests me."

Ah, his manager, Yamaguchi thought.

"I'll call you later if you feel like it, now that I finally have your number," Terushima added in a sing-song voice.

"Sure, we'll talk later," Yamaguchi said.

"Or rather, I'll pick you up and go out on a date. See you later, freckles-kun."

The phone beeped and Yamaguchi separated from the cell phone with flushed cheeks.

Terushima Yuuji, the porn actor, just asked him out on a date?

***

Anxiety was devouring Yamaguchi inside.

Terushima called him again to ask him 'officially', as he put it, on a date. He told Yamaguchi that it was something simple, that he didn't have to dress elegant, and asked him, not without a certain mischievous tone of voice, to put on that latex jacket with which he went to the party.