jian //drunken mistake

chapter 9

//kian pov//

I am so happy.

Since jc and I admitted our feelings to each other I've been over the moon. It's been a week and a half now and if I wasn't in love before, I definitely am now. Just knowing that I can make him blush and that he thinks about me as much as I think of them is enough to make me smile for the rest of my life.

We haven't been apart very much since that night, but hey I'm not complaining. Sam says were going through "the honeymoon stage" of our relationship.

Speaking of relationship... There's one thing that's been nagging in the back of my mind for a while. We're not a couple yet. I want us to be, but I'm afraid to make the first move. But he hasn't bothered to ask me so I don't know what to do.

What's our status? Is he cool with just being friends with benefits? Guys who like each other but don't label it? Fuck that I wanna be his boyfriend. I want to call him mine.

We were sat outside enjoying the beautiful day, talking about random things and joking around. I was seated cross legged in the grass and jc was in a lawn chair with wishbone in his lap. I plucked a blade of grass from the lawn and rolled it between my fingers thoughtfully.

"You like me, right?" I questioned the shorter boy who was wrestling with the pup.

"Duh, why do you even have to ask?" He said like it was the most obvious thing in the world. I leaned on my arms as I looked at jc.

"Well I'm just wondering what I mean to you. What do you consider me?"

He paused for a moment to think.

"One of my best friends. But I to be honest I haven't thought about what we are. I've just been in a daze ever since you told me how you felt" jc said shyly, scratching wishbones head. I smiled and took his hands in my own. No time like the present, hey?

"Well I've put some thought into it and I was thinking.. Do you want to be my boyfriend?" I flashed a huge smile and wiggled my eyebrows. He crossed his arms in thought and leaned back in his chair.

" I guess so, I've got nothing better to do with my life anyways. But you're not my first choice."

" shut your damn mouth boy" I said in a fake southern accent. He laughed and squeezed my hands.

" I would love to be your boyfriend." He smiled sweetly and I pulled him in for a quick kiss on the lips. It only lasted a few seconds but every kiss with him is my new favourite moment.

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//jc pov//

Kian lawley is finally my boyfriend. Victory is miiinee!!! Even though I only realized I liked him about a month or so ago, deep down I've liked him for a while. But it's hard to come to terms with the fact that ur gay and in love with your best friend, when you think your straight and like boobs. Oh well.

My family doesn't know I'm gay... This will be interesting need for the world. None of our family or friends are homophobic, but I know for a fact that some fans are.

The comments that are lest on various videos by a select few viewers are outrageous. But honestly I crack a lot of gay jokes... Hypocrite much. But I don't care if they approve because it's my life and my choices. If they don't like to they can leave. Simple as that!!

I kinda want to keep it quiet for a bit. We've got a lot of things coming up soon and I don't wanna cause a scene so we'll wait a while to come out to the media. Vidcon is coming up on the horizon and I am honestly so pumped.

All of a sudden it started to rain heavily and kian and I ran inside the house, but not heifer getting completely drenched in water. We stood shaking on the door mat in our wet clothes. I quickly stripped my shirt from my body and tossed it on the floor. I took Kian's off for him when i noticed him get a bit embarrassed. He blushed and we went to get towels to dry off and new clothes to wear. Even when he was soaking wet and the rain had flattened his hair, he's the most beautiful human in the world.

After we were both dry and changed, we walked to the living room where the guys were all yelling and in a game of Mario kart. I didn't really feel like playing because they get too competitive and I'm a big sook. I turned to kian.

"Do you wanna go into my room? We can watch a movie or something.." I said, trying to fight back a grin.

He smiled and bit his lip.

" yeah sure" he grabbed my arm and led me to the bedroom.

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"What are you, 5? I am not watching finding nemo"

"Well I am not watching grease. John travolta makes me want to throw up!!"

I huffed and crossed my arms. Kian is being a baby and making fun if my childhood role model. Plus grease is a great movie!! Kian rolled over on his stomach and looked into my eyes with a sad puppy expression. Well shit. How do I say no to that.

I uncrossed my arms and got up to put on finding nemo.

"Fine ya little kid. But next time were watching grease!" I yelled, trying to make my point. I shut
off the lights, got some buttery popcorn, and jumped onto my bed. Kian immediately snuggled into me, tangling our legs and sighing contently. How more adorable can you get?

"Why are you so cute?" I thought out Loud, gently combing through his messy hair as his eyes were glued to the screen.

"I'm not cute I'm manly now shut up and watch finding nemo." I laughed at his "manliness" and covered us with a fuzzy blanket. I kissed kian on the head and wrapped my arm around his waist, paying more attention to the perfect person in my arms then the stupid fish in the movie.

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I hate homework so much omf I gotta do a science fair project tomorrow and I'm so pissed cuz I don't wanna do it ugh. And HOLY BALLS Michael Clifford's hair is fricking sexy af I died. It should be illegal to be that sexy.