jian //drunken mistake

chapter 21

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Shout out to yall who gave me a hell yeah. You know who you are.
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//JC pov//

I can't stop thinking about him.

Everything reminds me of him.

All the things we used to do...

At first it just didn't seem real, like everything happened so fast that I couldn't comprehend what had taken place. I would wake up in a cold bed, calling out to kian to come back to bed until connor had to come tell me kian wasn't coming back.

Now it's all too real. I wake up with a bittersweet taste in my mouth and a throbbing lonely feeling in my chest.
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"Hey jc, I brought you a sandwich." Sam spoke gently, like if he raised his voice even the slightest bit that I would breakdown. I continued staring at the ceiling with my headphones plugged into my laptop, some random playlist playing quietly in my ears.

I heard the glass plate scrape against my table as he laid it down and sat on the bed.

"You left your phone on the couch... A few days ago. I expected you to come get it but-" yeah but then you realized I wouldn't be getting up any time soon. Good on ya sam. "I figured I'd bring it to you." Is isn't have to be looking at him to see the smile in his voice. He was trying so hard. I wish I could smile back. He deserves a smile. But I just... Can't.

"You got a message from someone, I didn't read it obviously but it's from a blocked number. Do you want me to delete it?"

I furrowed my eyebrows, switching my gaze to the phone in sams firm grasp. I didn't block kians number. I'm that pathetic. I probably thought he'd call sometime and say he's on his way home.

I never got that call.

Obviously.

Who the hell is texting me then. If it's someone saying I'm sorry for your loss again I will punch them. It's been two months now. Everyone should be over it (except me.)

Sam left shortly after, getting no response from me first nor last. I plucked my phone up off the crumpled sheet and opened it, seeing a message that read:

Hey jc, long time no talk. I've been thinking a lot about how I treated you when we broke up and I'm so sorry. It was terribly rude of me to say the things I did. I'm not homophobic at all. I was just upset because I really liked you and I was jealous. But I'm over that now and I think you and kian are an adorable couple. I would love to stay friends! xx, lia

Oh. Wow that was long overdue. She was pretty rude to think back on it but hey so was I.. I cheated on her with a guy then acted like it was no biggie. I guess a friendship here wouldn't hurt.

Hey lia, how've you been? It's okay I guess I forgive you, it's been a while anyway so we're good. Oh about that... Kian and I broke up a couple months back. He left one day and yeah. -jc

I laid my phone in my clothes chest and took a deep breath. Sh texted back almost immediately.

Oh my gosh I'm SO sorry j I had no idea! That's so horrible of him to leave you like that. What a dick move! I expected like, so much more from him😤 xx, lia

She's kind of right... Maybe it's not completely my fault. Just maybe.

Haha yeah. Thanks for being concerned about me, lia. It means a lot. -jc

I stared at my phone eager for her reply. It felt good to communicate with people. Even if it was my slightly crazy ex.

It's no problem at all! I'll always care about you jc, I just can't believe kian would do something like this. You must feel so lonely. Xx, lia

I get another message 2 seconds after.

We should hang out sometime:) xx, lia

I think for a minute. What could go wrong? It'd be just as friends. Plus, it'd be good for me to get out of the house... Get my mind off kian.

Maybe Lia isn't so bad.

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THIS IS NOT JIA I REPEAT. THIS. IS. NOT. JIA.

but watch out for the next few chapters LOL

-hugs and kisses