jian //drunken mistake

chapter 12

(A/N a short time skip to at Vidcon, o2l is taking in questions from fans. Kian still hasn't attempted to apologize to jc, so jc is really upset.)

//3rd person//
"Hey, jc! Over here!" A short brunette girl waved her hand in the air, trying to get they boys attention. Jc nodded his head at her and smiled.

"Sup" he called back to her, leaning back in his plastic fold out chair. His chin and jawline was covered in stubble and he looked worn out. He didn't want to look upset in front of the fans, he knew it would hurt them. So he just told people he was tired when they asked him. Truth is he was mad. So mad.

"Well I'm not trying to impose or anything but, uh, is jian real?" You could see the hopeful glint in her eyes behind her thick black-rimmed glasses. The room erupted in cat calls and cheers. Kian raised his eyebrows and bit back a smile, knowing noes not the right time given the circumstances.

Jc chewed on his bottom lip, shooting kian a sad look before laughing and shaking his head.

"Hahaha nope! Sorry jian shippers but it is not, and never will be." He didn't skip a beat. The crowd replied with a round of disappointed groans. The girl shook her head at the two, apparently the only one noticing the obvious tension between the boys. There was something going on there and she knew it.

Kian felt like he couldn't breathe. To hear the person he cared for most say those words was the equivalent of getting hit by a bus. Tears began to form in Kian's eyes and he tapped sam on the shoulder. Sam turned to him, a shocked expression now on his face.

"I can't stay here, please cover for me." Kian whispered to his friend. Sam smiled softly, knowingly. Sam always understood, and was always there for kian. They were best friends. Ever since kian started liking jc, he had spent less time with Sam. But Sam forgave him. He always did. Even when kian didn't deserve it.

Kian exited the stage calmly, locking himself in the dressing room. He made sure no one else was around before screaming loudly and yanking at the roots of his hair. He through his phone onto the couch and kicked down one of the legs of the coffee table, causing everything to crash onto the floor. Calm down kian, maybe he's just not ready to come out yet. It's not a big deal. Kian breathed in and out slowly, sinking into the couch. If he would just man up and talk to jc things would be fine. But he's too scared.

Jc doesn't know why it's fair that kian gets to be all sooky and broken when this is all HIS fault. It's not like he went out and kissed someone. And kian wasn't even drunk! But somehow jc still gets the shitty end of the stick. He really does love kian. He's just hurt. And it was weird having to say that him and kian were not a thing, but maybe that could be a wake up call to kian. Get him up off his ass and apologizing to jc.

Jc is the kind of person that when he's sad or heartbroken, he acts rude and cocky about it. He won't let people in and he will put a wall up and won't show his true emotions to many people. Kian thinks it's so stupid. You should always tell people how you're feeling. If you're sad, you should talk about it. But jc won't. He'll just pretend he's alright. He'll pretend he doesn't love kian.

Jc has his heart set on waiting for kian to approach him first. He at least deserves that. However, kian is too afraid to say anything, thinking he'll screw up and lose jc for good. Jc has a feeling kian won't come up to him about in anytime soon, so he needs to act. One sure fire way to get someone's attention is to make them jealous.
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I find it so weird writing in 3rd person but eh both sides needed to be expressed! Also I'm writing a muke fic called kissing in the rain and if anyone digs 5sos YOU SHOULD CHECK IT OUT k thx baiii