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It's fine|kim sunoo

I tapped my pen on the table waiting for the class to end. I was getting sleepy and the voice of the teacher isn't helping at all.

I opened my notebook and scribbled things at the back of it. My life has always been like this. Boring and lame. I fixed my things in my bag. The lecture was rather longer than usual and I don't even remember one single thing. I looked outside the window, it was sunny and the students are already scattered around the school field. I pursed my lips, I'm gonna go to college next year and I still have no one to call friend, I really think im going to be alone for good.

I putted on my airpods and my backpack, I hid my phone in the pouch of my hoodie and walked my way to the school's campus where I usually hang out.

At some point, I used to wish I would disappear from this world

I watch my foot as I climb the stair steps,humming with the song.

The whole world seemed so dark and I cried every night

I opened the door of the rooftop and I was greeted by the sun's brightness, I closed my eyes tightly and opened them once again only to be greeted by a pair of light brown eyes.

Will I feel better if I just disappeared?
I was so afraid of everyone’s eyes on me

They are beautiful yet they were sad,they were filled with tears. And I realized who owned them.

During those beautifully beautiful days, I was in pain
I hated myself for not being able to receive love

Kim Sunoo, our school's pride and joy the one they call the sunshine, who's supposed to be someone who is always happy and cheerful.

But then again, he's only human.

My mom and my dad, they’re only looking at me
It’s not how I really feel but I keep getting farther away

My feet suddenly walked on their own and to sunoo's direction. And for once I letted out a genuine smile.

"Hey, you probably don't know me but-" I kneeled infront of him and hugged him. I closed my eyes as I hear him sob harder.

What do I do?
What do I do?
What do I do?
What do I do?

"It's okay, everything will be fine too." I gently patted his back. His tears was enough to let me know that he's in a lot of pain.

The saying time is medicine was really true for me
As the days went by, I really got better

Everytime I got the chance to see him, he's always laughing and smiling. Like he has no problems at all. Even though we're not even close, it breaks my heart to see someone so vulnerable like him cry and break down. I pulled away from the hug and stared right back at his brown eyes.

"What's wrong? You can tell me." I said softly, wiping his tears. I would probably be embarrassed after this, I don't even know where I got the courage to actually interact with someone and to Kim sunoo at that!

But sometimes, when I’m too happy, I’m afraid I’ll be in pain again
I’m afraid that someone will take away this happiness

"I-I mean only if you're comfortable of course." I suddenly panicked realizing that he doesn't even know me.

"I-it's just im exhausted, I'm sorry you have to witness me like this. It must be uncomfortable for you." He said in a shaking voice.

Those beautifully beautiful memories were so painful
I was hurting and hurting but the pain wouldn’t go away

"Being an idol is hard, the expectations of the fans and all of that. " He laughed sadly.

"I know I should be greatful, especially since im the producers pick so I have to work extra harder and prove myself. But im still scared, im scared that I won't be able to meet their expectations." I bit my lips saddened at his confessions,nodding. He wiped his tears and gave me a smile.

My friends, all these people, they’re only looking at me
This isn’t how I really am but I keep getting farther away

"Thank you for listening to me! It must have been very awkward for you." I immediately shaked my head.

"No! Not at all! Its okay! Can I uh sit beside you?" I asked for permission when I realized I was still kneeling. He nodded at me. I carefully sat next to him.

But still, maybe I can be
A bright light in this world
Maybe after all of that pain
I can shortly shine a light
So I couldn’t give up

"Life must be hard for you, It's okay to be exhausted from everything. " I said softly as I took a bottle of water from my bag.

I couldn’t fall asleep peacefully for a single night
Because maybe if I keep trying to get up like this
I will find myself

"It's okay to not be fine from time to time, there's nothing wrong in crying, what's important is you're trying. So don't give up. There's a lot of people who cherish and love you. So you have to stay healthy and strong! You'll shed a tear but I promise it will all be worth it in the end. " I opened the bottled water and offered it to him. He looked at the water then at me before taking it , muttering a small

"Thank you."

How painful must it have been?
How painful must it have been?
How high must my hopes have been?

The song used here is called 'To my youth' by bolbbalgan4

This song is actually one of sunoo's favorite song, I hope he feels better.

Please do request thankyou!