I yawned as I stealthily got up from the couch, careful to not wake up my boys. I tiredly shuffled to the bathroom and got ready for the day. I threw on a pair of black, ripped leggings and a Pierce the Veil shirt. I did my make up quickly and teased my hair a bit to add a slight spikey effect. I slipped on my teal converse and made my way back to the boys.
The three of them were still asleep on the couch, but had shifted so they were all huddled together. I smiled at them a took a picture and posted it to our twitter page with the caption, "Awwe look at my sleepy boys!"
I smiled to myself as I prepared a bowl of cereal and sat on the floor across from the couch, using the bottom cabinets as a back rest. As I sat there, I smiled and held back a laugh. I realized that my life has gone through a dramatic change over this summer. I was no longer the shyish girl who got bullied everyday, I was now traveling all over the United States in tour bus with three of the most amazing guys in the world. I was playing music to hundreds everyday. I was going to be a mom and was engaged to the most amazing man in the world, who I believed truly cared about me and would be there for me no matter what. In a way Hailey Sails was no more and this "alter ego" I had created as Harley Sails has taken over. Hailey allowed herself to get pushed around and get hurt. She never fought for what she wanted, but they Harley came along. Harley was stronger and burst out of the shell Hailey had been trapped in. Harley had allowed me to finally be myself and not be afraid. Harley is the one that the fans new, most probably didn't even know Hailey was my real name. In a way Harley is the one that saved me.
I sat on the floor as the realization finally hit me. I have always been Harley. Harley has always been there hiding under the surface. I realized that since I assumed the name Harley, I finally felt that I had a purpose in life, but at the same time it felt like I was living a lie.
My thoughts were quickly broken up when I saw Levi sit down next to me out of the corner of my eye. I smiled slightly at him as my thoughts were still racing. He smiled at me and draped an arm around my shoulder. He pulled me closer and pressed his lips to my cheek. I sighed as he slowly pulled me from my thoughts.
I turned so that instead of my cheek, he kissed my lips. He pulled back slightly and starred into my eyes. He bit his lower lip slowly, before I pulled him back to me. Our lips connected once again and I couldn't think of anything else other than staying like this with him forever. I craved him. I realized that I craved him all the time and wanted nothing more than to have him be mine until the end of time. He pulled me closer to his body, the best he could with my growing baby bump.
As the kiss continued to grow more passionate, we were interrupted...yet again. "OH jeez I'm sorry" the bus driver stammered as he walked onto the bus.
Levi leaned back until he was laying on the floor. He draped one arm over his eyes as he let out a groan of frustration.
"No no you're fine" I assured the driver, "happens all the time" I replied plastering a smile on my face.
"What happens all the time?" A very tired Kenney asked, peaking out from the blanket that was now wrapped around him and Jason.
"NOTHING" Levi said from the floor.
At that Jason burst out laughing, "good we don't need more little Levi's"
Our bus driver slowly started backing away towards the door, looking slightly awkward. "I'll just be going, sorry to have interrupted. Just wanted to let you know its been a pleasure driving for the four of you. Next time you're on tour look me up." he said stepping out the door.
"Don't go!!!!!" Kenney screamed chasing after him with Jason close behind.
Levi looked at me laughing. "So do you think the offer is still going to stand in a few minutes?" I asked laughing as well.
"I hope so" he said smiling at me.
Levi stood up and walked into the bunk area. When he came back, he sat down beside me again, but this time he had his favorite acoustic guitar. "I want to play you something" he said smiling.
He started strumming his guitar and soon began to sing. While he sang, I placed my hand over my stomach. I gasped in surprise when I felt the baby kick, almost in time with music.
When he heard me gasp, Levi quickly stopped playing, "Harley baby whats wrong? Are you in pain?" he asked sounding alarmed.
"No, Levi, I'm fine." I said with a huge grin on my face.
"Then what is it?"
"The baby kicked. I think it likes your singing"
Levi smiled and set his guitar down. He pulled me closer so I was basically on his lap. He placed one arm around my shoulder and his opposite hand on my stomach. He smiled as the baby kicked and looked down at me. He slowly lifted my shirt so my bump was exposed. He leaned down and kissed it gently, whispering "I love you."
He looked at me again and kissed my lips, "Just as much as your beautiful mother" he said once he pulled away.
I looked up at him, my heart filled with love and joy. I felt happy, happier than I ever thought I could feel. My life for the first time in a long time felt whole and like nothing could ever go wrong again.
