I wish you were gay||Billie Eilish story

Chapter 5

 Billie's P.O.V.

I figured after earlier Lila wanted nothing to do with me. We drove in silence for a while until I said, "Hey Lila I'm sorry about earlier. I shouldn't have did that especially not in public." I look over for a second just in time to see her roll her eyes and look back out the window. She waited a while before she said, "You were right though. I did like it that's why I didn't stop you." I blushed and I hear her scoff. "Don't flatter yourself." I heard her say. I decided to mess with her a little. "I thought you weren't into girls." I didn't look at her but I know she was giving me one of her death stares. The thought made me laugh and I could hear the annoyance in her voice when she said, "Conversations over. Focus on the road." I laughed harder. "Ok. I'm sorry." She just looked out the window and didn't talk for the rest of the ride. When we got to my house she got out first and before she walked away she said, "I didn't have to deal with this sexuality shit before you came." Wait what? Did she like me? Did I turn her out? I was so lost in thought I didn't even realize lila was calling my name. "Hellooo. Earth to billie. Are you gonna get out of the car?" "Oh yea. sorry. I was just thinking." I turned off the ignition and got out of the car. We walked the stairs and I opened the door.

Lila's P.O.V.

Billie opened the door and I could see Finneas watching tv in the living room. "Hey finn." I called to him. He said hey to me and billie and asked where we were going. "To my room." Billie replied. He smirked and she quickly said, "It's not like that." He just smiled and she grabbed my arm and led me to her room. Her room was really cool and I liked the way she displayed all her shoes. I sat down on the bed which was surprisingly comfy. She sat next to me and we sat in silence for a while. "Why didn't you wanna ride with Scarlet?" She asked. "Nothing major she just told me she liked me and I kind of went off on her." She didn't say anything so I continued. "Billie I don't like girls. I never have." She just smiled and said sure. "can I ask you something Lila?" "Sure." She hesitated before she said, "What did scarlet mean when she said after all that happened?" Damn I forgot she said that in front of her. "Can we not talk about that now?" "Sure." I looked at her and she gave me that same look that she gave me when we were in the movie theater. "Whatt?" She just leaned over and whispered in my ear, "I don't think a straight person would let a girl finger them." That sent chills up my spine. Shit. Why was she so tempting? She laughed at the fact that I was speechless. I turned to look at her and I pulled her to me. We were now face to face and that's when she kissed me. I let her soft lips press against mine for a while. When she released I got up and pushed her down on the bed and got on top of her. I gave her a peck on the lips before I made my way to her neck. She lift her head as I planted kisses on her neck. She pushed me off then she pushed me up against the wall. She kissed and sucked on my neck and as she did this she lifted my skirt and rubbed my vagina through my underwear. She looked at me and smirked. "Omg billie stop teasing me." She laughed at this and continued kissing my neck she went lower and lower and as she did she pinned my arms against the wall. All the flashbacks flooded my mind. The room suddenly felt crowded. Those boys all around me while one held me down. Before I could bring myself back to reality I pushed billie and yelled stop. "Bro what the fuck did I do." I felt stupid. Tears built in my eyes. My throat felt clogged and I couldn't breathe. It got very hot. I had to get out of here.

Billie's P.O.V.

"Bro what the fuck did I do." I was so confused as to why she pushed me but before I can ask her what's going on she starts hyperventilating. Her eyes are moving all around the room. "Lila are you okay?" She couldn't speak. She was crying and she couldn't catch her breath. I walked towards her. "Lila?" She looked like she was trying to focus on me but her mind was somewhere else. "lila?" I grabbed her face and I kissed her. I didn't know what else to do. When I released her breathing slowed and then it went back to normal. I grabbed her and took her to the bathroom. She splashed cold water on her face. She didn't say anything until she turned around. "Can we go back to the bed?" I was totally confused by her question. "Um...sure but what the fuck just happened?" She left the bathroom and I followed. She sat down on the bed and I sat next to her. "I'm really sorry for pushing you. I got overwhelmed." "What happened? What were you thinking about?" She didn't say anything for a while until she asked, "Do you have something for me to wear? I think I'm gonna stay the night." I was speechless. Was she serious right now. She noticed my confusion and said, " It's gonna be a long night. I should call my mom and let her know." She got off the phone with her mother and told me my mom had to call her mom. I gave her an over sized shirt and I went downstairs to tell my mom. When I came back she had just put the shirt on and to lighten the mood I said, "I like that shirt better on you." She gave me a small smile and then sat down on the bed. She gestured for me to sit down next to her. She looked a me and said, "It's gonna be a long night." I turned to face her and I waited for her to speak. "Here goes."