I wish you were gay||Billie Eilish story

Chapter 10

Lila's P.O.V.

I felt stupid. My bestfriend was sitting in this hospital half dead and she didn't even want me here. But then again I didn't do shit to her for her to treat me like this. She's the one being a stuck up jealous bitch. I was still in the bathroom and I got the the stupidest weirdest idea. I pulled out my phone and I didn't hesitate to text Billie.

Me: Hey bils, can I come over?

I was surprised she even replied.

Billie: Yea. Sure. Why?

I really didn't want to tell her over text and I don't know why but her asking me that annoyed me.

Me: I'll tell you when I get there. I'm omw.

Billie: Um.. ok. I'll leave the door unlocked.

I put my phone back in my pocket and left out the stall. I looked in the mirror as I was leaving and I saw a bald spot in the back of my head. I took my hair out of the rubber band and let it hang down. I didn't want anyone to see that. It's so embarrassing. I left out the bathroom room and into the waiting room. "Where are you going honey?" my mom asked. "I need to make a run I'll be back. She doesn't want me here anyway." My eyes watered as I said the last sentence. "What?! Why would you think that?" I tried hard to keep myself from rolling my eyes. "I'll be back mom. Don't worry about a ride. I'll get on the bus." I walked away before she could say anything else. She was calling after me but I just ignored her. I thought about getting on the bus but the hospital was quite aways from billie's house.

Billie's P.O.V.

I don't know why I told lila she can come over. I didn't even feel like talking to her right now.  I was going back upstairs after I unlocked the door when I got another text from Lila.

Lila: Actually can you come pick me up. Please.

Me: Ok. send me your location.

Lila: I'm on 85th and cardinal road

Me: Ok. I'm omw.

Ugh. I really didn't feel like going anywhere. I grabbed my keys and made my way outside to my car. I wondered why Lila was at the hospital. Did something happen to her? When I pulled up to the hospital I saw Lila standing outside. She looked hurt, angry, and irritated. Okay. She's fine but why is she here? She saw me and her mood shifted. She hurriedly got into the car. "Hey." she said. "Hey. Where do you wanna go?" She looked at me when she said this. I don't know why but her gaze made me a bit uncomfortable. "Can we got to your house? I just need to get away for a while." "Okay. Whatever you want shorty." She smiled for a split second and then she looked the same as she did when I pulled up. Honestly she looked kind of lost in a way. I pulled off. I decided that I'll wait till we got to my house before I load her with questions. When we got to my house I got out the car and opened the door for Lila. "Is this your way of apologizing for the other night?" She asked innocently with a smirk. I actually got kind of annoyed because what was I apologizing for? I only did it because I felt bad about what happened after our argument. I just gave her a small smile and moved aside so she could walk past. When we got in the house she sat on the couch and I sat next to her. I hesitated before I asked, "Why were at the hospital? If you don't mind me asking." She looked down and fiddled with her fingers. She didn't say anything for a while and all of a sudden she started crying. "This was a mistake I should have never come here." she says as she gets up still crying. "Wait hey no. no. It's okay. You made the right decision. Just sit down and you could talk to me when you're ready."She started shaking her head and saying, "It's my fault. I'm a terrible friend. I'm fucking toxic and a whore!" I was so confused but I just grabbed her and held her in my arms. She cried into my shoulder. "Hey whatever happened I'm sure it's not your fault. You are an amazing friend and anyone is lucky to have you. You are not toxic and you are definitely not a whore." She just cried harder and I held her like that for a long time. It felt good to just hold Lila and comfort her. After a while she stopped crying and she got up out of my arms. She started speaking before she could stop herself. "After you left 2 days ago, I think, scarlet and I got into an argument and she got in a crash after. I went to see her in the hospital yesterday and they told me she was in surgery. When I could talk to her this morning she wasn't happy to see me at all. She doesn't even want me there." She paused for a second tearing up but she quickly continued. "It's all my fault. Instead of hanging out with my best friend, I was with you. That's how we got in the argument in the first fucking place." I instantly felt bad. I knew I was getting between them. I should've never got close with Lila in the first place. "I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to get between you and your friend-" She cut me off. "Billie it's not your fault. And as much as I hate to say it, she should've never been speeding on the highway."I didn't know how to respond to that so I just looked away. "She broke her leg and her left arm." Damn that's fucked up. "I'm really sorry. Maybe your right. We should just stay away from each other. We're fucking toxic." She looked up at me. "No billie. I didn't tell you but I say I'm not ready because when I love someone, my love comes strong and hard. In a short way of saying it, You're mine and I don't want you seeing anyone else. I didn't think you would want to be with someone like that." I smirked. I couldn't help it. It was cute that she wanted me all to herself and the thought of her being jealous over me, makes me smile. "Lila I don't know if you know already but normally I don't do relationships. But I think you're worth changing my ways. And you could've just told me that. I don't mind. It's actually really cute." She laughed and said, "Really?" "Yea. Especially the thought of you being jealous." She smiled and punched my arm. "Shut upp." For a minute we just stared at each other. I was happy she was in a better mood.

Lila's P.O.V.

Billie really knows how to make me feel better. I'm just happy I get a distraction from thinking about scarlet. "Do you wanna go to my room?" "Yea. Sure." We went upstairs to her room and I sat on her bed. "Hey Lila? I'll be right back. I'm gonna use the bathroom." "Oh ok." Before she went in she turned around and said, "Did I ever tell you how good you look with your hair down?" I just laughed and she did too. When she went into the bathroom I wandered around her room a bit. Don't ask why but I looked into one of her drawers and I found this little notebook. I picked it up and examined it. It looked kind of like a diary. I wasn't one to invade privacy but I had to know what was in it. As I was about to open it billie came out of the bathroom and I turned around startled. "Oh no that book is my life. You can't read that." She looked so serious but my dumb ass was amused by this. "I wasn't but since it's so important now I have to read it." I say playfully. She inches closer to me. "No but seriously dude you have to give it back. I don't want you to read it. Nobody can read it but me." I just smiled and said, "Make me." I now know these were a bad choice of words because she suddenly had this big smile on her face. Honestly it made me a little nervous. Before I knew it, billie grabbed me by my neck and pinned me against the wall. 

Billie's P.O.V.

Everyone knows those are two words you can't say to me. I have a dirty mind. I pinned her against the wall and grabbed her by her neck. She put her legs up and wrapped them around my waist. I kissed her roughly and deeply as I also pried the notebook from her hand. I gave her one last peck on her lips before I got on my knees and before I can do anything I hear her moan. I bit my lip. Her moan was so damn sexy. I ate her out and she was a moaning mess. Her legs started shaking and I knew she was close. "Let go mamas." She releases and I lick all her goods up. I put two fingers inside to help her ride out her orgasm. I come back up and I kiss her one last time before we get in my bed and she falls asleep in my arms. For some odd reason I felt guilty. Maybe because I don't think me and Lila will ever work out.  

*kinda long but worth it*

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