Neo Dorm - Nct 2020

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„So Johnny. Is there something you might want or need to tell me?", Doyoung asks the shocked and surprised other, as they just were in the hallway and it seemed to Johnny like Doyoung would just pass by him again.

But instead he stopped walking and started talking, first time for a few days that he did that again.

„Y-You're talking to me again?", Johnny answers, almost thinking he's dreaming right now, turned around towards Doyoung who first just shows him his back, then turns around as well, looks him directly in the eyes with a serious look.

„Yes I am. So, isn't there something you need to say?"

„R-Right, I should apologize-"

„Not That. That's not what I mean John Suh."

„What?"

„I meant...", he starts as he walks closer towards the overrun other and places a hand on his shoulder, slowly sliding down a bit so he's about on the height of his collarbone with his fingertips.

„...About your feelings.", he finishes the sentence, moving the hand towards Johnny's heart which is beating like crazy.

„Wait- what- how-?", he first stutters, almost backing away since it's too much at once. Then he realizes something.

„Wait... Lucas?"

„My way of getting informations. I needed to know what your side looked like since I'm not a fan of letting anyone play with me, both body or feelings. The reason I was so mad and tried to flee so much back then, back at that night when it happened. The reason my shirt got destroyed as well, you were persistent and at some point I later gave in as well, not just because you were starting to get me drunk. But since you couldn't remember anything I felt like I was played with so I wanted to clear what it was. If I really had been I probably wouldn't forgive you for at least a month.", Doyoung finally explains the other, who had been confused for quite a while now.

„So You're saying...?"

„Saying what? That I love you? Yes."

„You... how long? Since when? Why did I never notice?"

„Quite a long time now. But oh well, I hid it since I thought you're rather just gonna play with or won't like me-"

„You're kidding me right now. If I knew even sooner that you love me a lot of this would have been different, would have went different! God if I only had noticed or known sooner!", Johnny interrupts Doyoung, surprising the younger of the both, Doyoung expected a lot but not this.

The way Johnny almost seems to make himself responsible, but not for that one night anymore, rather for not noticing sooner that Doyoung loved him.

„What do you mean?"

„I could have avoided so much of this chaos with you. I never thought you would love me, I didn't notice a single thing! I'm so sorry I hurt you without meaning to, I'm really sorry!"

„It's okay, calm down first. You're surprisingly upset right now..."

„I'm just upset at myself. I would have given you all the love you deserve and needed so much sooner if I could, but no I was just too stupid to realize it."

A sentence that both surprises Doyoung as well as makes him a bit flustered, since the other said it completely serious.

„It's fine, we can't change the past now.", he answers, head a bit to the ground as he tries to hide the blushing, a bit red, cheeks.

„Then let me give you what you deserve right now. I love you Doyoung, you're everything I need right now."

Doyoung can't even respond or really do anything as Johnny suddenly grabs him and just straight up kisses him, not caring at all that they're still standing in the hallway.

But there's one thing they didn't notice which they probably should have.

Shotaro witnessing the whole scene.