Fanfiction [Charlie Gillespie]

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The second I got into my apartment, I ran to my room and locked it. I don't understand how I could've trusted him. Not once did he mention he had a girlfriend. And you would think that would be a vital piece of information to tell someone. I wonder how long he wasn't going to tell me. The feeling of having lost someone is nothing I've ever experienced before.

I curled myself into a ball under the weight of my comforter, blocking out any and every sound. Apparently, it didn't work, because I heard the front door slam shut.

"Beckett?" Laney's voice called, echoing through the apartment.

"Laney is she here?" Another voice asked.

"Charlie, I honestly don't even know why you're here right now. You broke my best friend's heart!" She yelled at him.

"I didn't intend on breaking her heart, Laney," He said.

"Then what was it, Charlie? You would fuck her until she found out you had a girlfriend? Oh, wait! You already did," She yelled again.

"Laney, it wasn't like that! I liked Beckett," He said.

"Then why would you even do that to her?" She yelled. "YOU HAVE A GIRLFRIEND,"

"I was going to break up with her. The moment I saw Beckett, I knew I wanted to be with her. I knew I wanted to be the one who made her smile. The one who made her laugh. I wanted to be the one she would go to with everything and spend time with. I planned on breaking up with her the day before I met Beckett, I mean hell I did," He said.

"What do you mean you did?" She asked, clearly confused.

"I broke up with her that day. Adrianna doesn't like not getting her way. She insisted that I was losing my mind if I broke up with her. I told her I didn't want to be with her anymore, I had lost feelings. I hadn't talked to her since that day. But then when I was talking to babydoll-"

"Don't call her that," She snarled.

"When I was talking to Beckett, she showed up and claimed we were still dating. She ran out so fast I couldn't even explain myself. Adrianna always has a way to ruin things for me. She made 2 years of my life living hell because she wouldn't let me break up with her,"

"How do I know you're not lying?" She asked.

"I wouldn't like to you or Beckett. I didn't tell her about Adrianna because I didn't think it was important. It had been over a month since I even talked to her, I thought she got the hint I didn't want to be with her," He said.

I slowly got out of my bed and unlocked the door, peeking my head out the slightest to catch what they were talking about.

"You made her look like a fool in there, Charlie," She said throwing her hands up.

"That was never my intention," He said running a hand through his hair.

"Well, that's what happened," She said turning to look towards my door.

"Beckett," Charlie said.

I stood there, staring at the two, unsure of what to say. My face was red and I knew they were tear-stained. Charlie looked towards Laney who then looked towards me. I slowly nodded my head at her and walked back into my room, Charlie entering after me.

"Beckett, I can't begin to tell you how sorry I am," He said as he closed my door.

I still was unsure of what to say. I slumped into my bed, pulling the covers over my face.

"Beckett, please talk to me," He said sitting on the edge of my bed.

"I don't know what to say," I managed to squeak out.

"Just let me explain everything," He said, scooting closer to me as he grabbed my hands. "You're the only person I can see myself being with. Adrianna was someone who I was with for a long time. Sure, it was great in the beginning. But then it became toxic. She wouldn't let me go out with my friends or even be without her longer than 5 minutes," He breathed out.

"I broke up with her the day before I met you and I honestly thought she was okay with it. We hadn't talked the whole month we were doing whatever we were doing. Tonight was the first night I had seen her since I broke up with her. I wanted to explain so much, but you ran off so fast," He finished as he looked at me.

"I looked like a fool," I said as tears ran down my face.

"I never wanted that to happen, babydoll," He said, wiping the tears from my face.

"But it did. I was the one who ended up hurt Charlie,"

He looked at me as he searched my face for exactly what I was thinking. He cupped my face with his hands and looked me in the eyes intently.

"I never wanted to hurt you, Beckett. Never in my life did I think I would find such a beautiful, kind, amazing girl. But I did, and it was you. I didn't expect her to be at that party tonight and I never would have thought that would happen," He said as I looked at him.

"But, it did," I said lowly.

"And I will do everything I can to prove to you that I'm not the guy you think I am," He said brushing a hair out of my face.

I didn't know what else to say. I was at a loss for words. I shuffled in my spot as I got more under the blanket, Charlie soon following me. I wanted to forgive him, but something inside me told me to make him work for it. His arms wrapped around my waist as my back was towards him. I didn't want to look at him because I knew I would start crying.

I woke up the next morning with Charlie's arm still wrapped around my waist. I laid there, figuring out what I was going to say to him. I was up all night thinking of possible things to say. How I wanted to forgive him but everything in me was saying not to. My head was spinning with thoughts and they wouldn't stop.

"Good morning, babydoll," He whispered in my ear, making me shiver.

"Good morning, loverboy," I said turning towards him, smiling.

"Loverboy?" He asked looking at me. "Does this mean we're okay?"

I looked at him and sighed. "Not yet, but we'll get there,"

"That's all I want, Beckett," He said wrapping his arms around my waist once again. "I just want to prove to you that I'm a good guy,"

I smiled at him, reassuring him that he could do it. Though I couldn't convince myself that he wouldn't hurt me again. Never being in a relationship really set the standards for how I wanted to be treated. I've seen Laney come home heartbroken again and again over guys who didn't even deserve her time. I don't want to do that, ever. I want to be with Charlie, trust me I do. I've just come so far in loving myself to let him hurt me again.

But, I wanted this to work.