Fanfiction [Charlie Gillespie]

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When you see * play the song, gives a better feel for the scene!
also TW: panic attacks

When I was younger, my mother always told me good things come to those who wait. I've waited so long to give myself to someone and when I finally did, it bit me in the ass. I don't even know if I would believe that anymore. I've waited for so many things and nothing good has come out of it. I just felt no matter how much of a good person I was, I would never get anything good. No matter how patient I was. No matter what I did.

I stood in my bathroom, staring at my reflection in the mirror. My eyes were swollen from all the crying I've done, my hair was a mess, and I just looked bad in general. I ran a hand through my hair before sighing and walking back into my room. Two weeks later and I still haven't left my room. I finally got the courage to leave my bed a few days ago per Laney's begging.

It felt nice to have these days to myself, even though I was sad. This time helped me think a lot about what I wanted and needed in my life. Maybe I didn't need a guy to make me happy. I know damn well I could make myself happy with the help of a man.

The only thing men are good for is fixing things and I stand by that.

"Do you want to go get lunch with me?" Laney asked, walking into my room.

I looked at her, debating whether or not I should. Leaving my apartment may be the best thing for me right now, given the fact that I haven't left since tha party and that was almost two weeks ago.

I swallow my pride and nodded towards her, "Yeah, probably time for me to leave the apartment and get some fresh air. Maybe some real food," I said laughing.

"There's my best friend," She smiled at me as she wrapped her around me, pulling me into a hug.

I smiled at her as we broke from the hug. She walked out of the room, leaving me to my thoughts. Maybe leaving the apartment would finally help me be okay again. Though Charlie and I never even dated, it felt as if I lost my best friend. He was always someone who I could tell everything to, besides Laney. He never made me doubt myself.

He was always there for me when I needed him and it felt that we were getting somewhere. When I saw Adrianna for the first time, my heart dropped. I thought 'oh, there's no way I could ever compete with her,' and I still think about that. Adrianna was so insanely beautiful and I see why Charlie was with her.

I sat on my bed and wondered if they were even still together. He did cheat on her after all and I don't think she's dumb enough to stay with him. Unless she is.

I slowly walked over to my closet before pulling out a random outfit. I honestly didn't care about my appearance at this point. I had absolutely no one to impress and it wasn't like I was going to see anyone I knew.

After putting my shoes on, I finally left my room. The living room was surprisingly clean, seeing as I was the one who normally cleaned it.

"You cleaned?" I asked, shocked.

"I mean you weren't going to do it and It was getting bad," She chuckled from the couch.

"Who are you and what have you done with Laney?" I giggled.

"That's offensive," She gasped, as she acted hurt.

"How? Laney, you don't have a cleaning bone in your body," I laugh as she looks at me.

"I do too!" She protests as she stands up.

"Whatever you say," I laugh as she grabs her keys off the wall.