Bumpy Roads

Falling apart

Emily's documentary

November 21, 2006

Hey guys *sniffle* you're probably like Emily why the hell are you crying, *nervous chuckle* to be honest I don't even know why. I mean I kinddd of know the reason. Two words. Jennifer Jareau.

Sh-She gave her business card to this detective on our last case, and FUCK! WHY HIM?! He looked so fucking stoned. Like he wasn't even prepared to hunt down a killer.
It aggravates me and I don't even know why.

Well instead of just sitting here in pathetic silence, why not put on a playlist?
Let's see umm we have...cooking, cleaning...late night drives...anddd OH! Sad playlist. PERFECT!

I mean being honest I don't REALLY really know why I'm like this. I mean I've dated girls before but that was merely a one time thing in college.
I'm not gay. Right?

*I Found by Amber Run begins to play*

Wow. What are you trying to say universe?
Damn might as well tattoo the answer on my face.

"Oh and I found love where it wasn't supposed to be." Tell me something I don't know.
JJ probably doesn't even like girls, for gods sake she was giving her number to a detective that looked like he smoked crack just as much as he brushed his teeth.

What am I even doing right now? I'm ranting about some girl I don't even know that well yet, and how I'm...oh my-I'm jealous!
No no no I-I don't get jealous. I don't date! I don't-I don't get into relationships. I don't get attached.
I-oh breathe Emily just, just breathe.

What is wrong with me?!
I really have to go talk to Apollo tomorrow about everything and this...feeling.

Oh right by the way Apollo is this really awesome person JJ introduced me to at a local coffee shop. I absolutely LOVE them- also they go by they/them pronouns which I think is absolutely badass.
I wish I could be more like them, they are brave enough to to put themselves out there and be this big bold person. People think that's how I am but really it's all an act.
Perks of being a diplomats daughter.

What time is it even?
8:30?! I have to feed Serge! Speaking of where is that little fur ball? Usually he's all up in my face when I'm doing these.

SERGE?! Sergio? Time to eat bud.

Oh no. Oh no no no no! He got out! Who the hell opened this window?! I didn't. Did I?
No he could be literally anywhere in this city right now. He could be dead.
I'm such a bad mother!

Why is my life suddenly deciding to fall apart right now? I just get a new amazing job, I'm making some friends, then all of a sudden I get these weirds feelings towards my co-worker and my best friend runs away.

Great.

There's not much I can do tonight though.
After I talk to Apollo tomorrow I might go looking for him. Hopefully he turns up but I doubt I would have any luck finding a black cat at night.

I'll leave this window open just a tad bit in case he finds his way back.
Hopefully he does. I can't stand thinking about my little man starving or freezing, or worse dying alone.

Well that's all I can do with that situation for tonight.
I guess I could fill you guys in on the case we had you know, besides the Will parts- yea and also he has a SUPER weird last name; LaMountagne. I get that it's Cajun but still it sounds weird.
Like lemon-tangerine.

It was honestly a pretty easy case. This girl was just killing men in the French Quarter because she was raped by a man but it never went on record and they said she was to wasted to remember anything clearly.
I believed her though especially after JJ and I had the honor of talking to the scum bag that did it to her.

Anyways I guess I have to bring up Will in this situation, because it's how we caught the unsub.
He told her his name, and then she asked about his father and he told her that Katrina had killed him.

She totally like froze and became paralyzed. I mainly believe it's because her father was the only one who gave a damn about the reported harassment. No other police officer or detective believed her, but it was Mardi Gras so who could blame them.
Especially since bystanders said they didn't hear any screaming when she claimed to have screamed.

I feel like I could talk on this thing for hours, and just let all the thoughts in my mind out leaving everything blank, new, and fresh.

Oh wow! It's already 10:20! I guess I CAN actually talk to you guys forever! *chuckle* welp guess I better end this. Even though we don't have work I still wanna get up early to go talk to Apollo.

So like I always say this isn't goodbye forever, just for a little bit.
Love you all have an amazing day.

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