Why Did You Let Go!?

P-Put The Knife Down Baby

You just feel like you have done something wrong yet again.

You: "Shinso I-I was scared and I didn't know how you would react to it..."

He hugs you again and cries.

Shinso: "Just tell me next time okay kitty?"

You: "okay baby I'm sorry"

He kisses you softly on the lips and smiles that your still alive. You were still starving but he didn't know till he remembered what recovery girl said a week ago. He took a deep breath and put a serious face on.

Shinso: "How about you eat something huh? It appears you are going to die if you don't eat so please kitty for me."

Your eyes widen. You didn't realise he knew you starved yourself for 5 weeks. You looked at him and smiled.

You: "Shinso I'm not hungry so no"

Shinso: "don't make me force you with my quirk"

You: "wait D-don't do that"

Shinso: "Eat then kitty"

You: "But I don't want-"

Before you could finish, he controlled you and was smiling. He called for recovery girl to get you food.

Shinso: "now when the food is here you will eat it and there will be enough for you to not throw it up"

You had no control or choice so when the food came you ate it all. It was a  whole family sized pizza and a peice of cookies and cream cake with a lemonade. You was full after that and shinso stopped controlling you.

Shinso: "See wasn't that hard was it my lovely kitten."

He smiled and you wasn't happy. You got a blade that you hid in a bracelet on your right wrist. You cut twice on your stomach and on the third, shinso saw.

Shinso: "Where the hell did you get that and all because you ate don't mean you can hurt yourself! Give me that baby kitten"

He takes the blades out your hand and cleans your new blades but then he notices the scar going across your neck.

Shinso: "Excuse me baby, but how many times have you tried to take away your beautiful body?"

You: "Um 47 times....... I don't want to be a burden sorry for telling you that."

Shinso: "kitten are you serious? You'll never be a burden, your my baby after all"

You smile and promise to never do that again.

A few years later, you and Shinso Hitoshi have a house together and a Cat called Hallie.

Shinso: "Baby I'm going to work now, I'll be back later. Bye Kitty I'll miss you when I'm gone"

You kiss goodbye and go to your room. He thought your depression had gone but it didn't. You wrote in your journal.

"Dear Diary,
Shinso doesn't know still and I want to tell him at some point but I just can't right now. Anyway, Today I heard that todoroki is dating Deku and I love that Deku is good. Me and him had an argument 3 months ago and now we haven't talked. I will talk to him tomorrow because I really am not in a good mood. I just want happiness. I love shinso and he makes me happy in a way but my depression always covers that happiness. I just feel like everyone judges me and I feel like no one understands me. People always say 'they are too scared to go near me because they don't want to get hurt' but they should know I won't hurt anyone other than myself. My cuts are getting deeper everyday and my arm is losing more blood than secondary school. Literally no one will understand how I feel but I can't tell anyone because it doesn't matter if you are an adult because you are always happy right? Anyway time to feed hallie and do another one of them deep cuts.
                      Bye, Y/N L/N"

I just hid that journal on the roof because no one but me goes up there. I was cooking dinner(Chicken and vegetable stew) When you hear a knock on the door. It was the squad.
Deku, Todoroki, Bakugo, Uraraka, Mina, Kirishima, Denki, Iida, Jirou and Sero.

You: "Hey guys. What are you doing here. Shinso is at work so sorry"

Todoroki: "We are not here for shinso Y/N. We are her to sort things out with you and deku and to get to the bottom of what started the argument."

Deku: "Hey Y/N I'm so sorry about that 3 months ago. I really missed you and I don't want to lose my best friend again"

You start crying and the whole group had a hug. Even bakugo who was dating Kirishima.

You: "Anyone hungry for dinner in 20 minutes?"

Everyone nodded and ten minutes later shinso came.

Shinso: "Wow baby your famous today."

You: "Babyyyyy! I missed you so much"

You hug and kiss when your brother Sam/name you wanted came through behind him.

Brother: "Hey lil sis what's happening here?"

You: "Hey bro it's dinner time nearly, come join us"

He nods and sits next to jirou. He was laughing with all your friends and on the inside you had a heart ache from all the love you were missing out on. You set the dinner on the table they were all sitting round and go upstairs. You lock the door and break down.
Shinso had a worried feeling in his stomach since he knows that you hadn't ate today. He excuses himself for a while and goes up to where you are.

Shinso: "Hey baby are you crying? Unlock the door please."

You unlock the door and run to the bed. You can hear shinso walking closer to you but you don't want to move since shinso didn't know that your depression came back.

Shinso: "Hey Kitten you okay? You seem sad."

You nod that your fine and go to sleep. He knew you weren't fine because of secondary school and how you were then but he wanted to leave you alone for a while.
Once dinner ended everyone left and shinso went upstairs.

Shinso looked at you in shock. He quickly shut the door and came over to you.

Shinso: "P-Put the knife down baby"

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