The Real You 2 || Jung Sungchan

Chapter 2

Sungchan:

I was in the middle of my last practice of the day. Even though I just debuted, I can't remember the last time I got a good amount of sleep. I was so tired, but I knew that if I showed it, my trainer would get mad. We have an early schedule tomorrow morning, yet I'm probably going to go to bed at 2am. My schedule is at 5am tomorrow, so it's always normal for me to only get like three hours of sleep. I'm practicing all day and I can barely touch my phone to send Miyoung a simple text. I know for a fact that I can't call her, but I wish I could at least ask how her day was. I don't care if it's just one word, I just want to know if she's okay.

The only things that are on my mind are Miyoung and my schedules. I know I should only be focusing on my promotions and stuff, but I can't stop thinking about Miyoung. I also know that I shouldn't even be dating since I'm a rookie, but I couldn't help it. I'm so worried about her but I can never show it on my face or else people will ask about it. And I can't tell them that I'm worried about my girlfriend because they don't even know I have a girlfriend. Since Miyoung doesn't have any social media, I can't stalk her or keep an eye on her. I also have no idea if she has new friends or not. Hopefully she's doing fine at her school, if not, I hope she at least tells me about it.

"Practice is done early today. Go rest." Our trainer says, we all thank him and we go to pack our stuff. I try to pack all of my things as quick as possible.

"Sungchan why are you in a rush?" Haechan laughs, I smile.

"I'm just... hungry." I lie and he nods, I finish packing my stuff, say bye to the members, and leave to go home.

Once I'm home, I realize that it's 1am and Miyoung is definitely asleep right now. I decide to send her a text that she can wake up to. I'm not that tired today, so I'm gonna use the rest of my energy to send a long and loving text to her.

Sungchan:
Hey, Miyoung. I'm so sorry that I haven't been able to text or call you. My schedule is extremely packed and I haven't gotten any blink of sleep in a long time. Don't worry about me, though, okay? I'll be okay knowing that you're supporting me. Thank you for always supporting me too. I'm glad that I have such a supportive and caring girlfriend by my side. Even if we're not together, I know that you're here for me, and I want you to know that I'm always going to be here for you. Don't hesitate to text me about your day. I don't care if it's long or short, I just want to know how your day went. Tell me everything, even all of the little details. I want to know everything about what happened. I never got the full details on how your first semester went, so please tell me all about it. I miss you so much, Miyoung. I really really wish that I can see you. Have you been watching my stages? I know you really only focus on Red Velvet, but I feel like you'd like 90s love. Hopefully one day we can try listening to the whole album together. These days, the only thing that I'm thinking about is all of the things we could do together if my schedule wasn't so busy. I want to hug you, cuddle you, hold your hands, kiss you, I just want to be with you every second. How nice would that be? Just the two of us. I know it's really hard, but we'll be okay no matter what. As long as I have you, I can live happily. You will always be the #1 girl in my heart and in my mind. I can't wait to see you again. Text me, please. Even if I don't respond, I'll see it before I sleep and sleep happily (even if I don't get that much sleep). I hope you're doing well in school and I hope you're taking care of yourself well. I know it's late but I'm going to bed now. I'll talk to you later okay? Thank you for being my girl. My one and only.

After I sent her the text, I turned off my phone and went to bed. I felt asleep to the thought of Miyoung reading my text message and smiling. I've always talked about how my favorite feature on her is her smile. I want to be the reason why she smiles everyday, I want to be there for her every second of her life. The one thing I never want is to lose her. Although our relationship is not normal, I know we will make it work so matter what. As much as I want to have a normal relationship where I can see my girlfriend every day and any time that I want to, this is the career I chose and I have to deal with it. I'm sure Miyoung will be okay, but I can't help but worry about her.

I know I seemed happy today because I finally texted her how I feel, but every other day, I can't stop asking myself questions about Miyoung. I was scared that she's going to find someone who's way taller, handsome, athletic, and smarter than me. What if she does? What happens if she finds someone who's better than me? I know I'm not the best, but I always try my best for her. I want to be the best for her, I never want to lose her. Will I lose her though? She's surrounded by tons of good-looking and smart men, what if she thinks they're better than me? Miyoung goes to a private school that's really hard to get into (I'm so happy that she got accepted to this school cause it was her dream school, I know I couldn't get in if I tried), so there's no way she's not going to meet someone who's her type. I don't want to tell Miyoung this because she's going to worry about me and I'm pretty sure she already is. Would she rather date someone who isn't a celebrity? Do I have to choose between music and my girlfriend?

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