The Real You 2 || Jung Sungchan

Chapter 12

Miyoung:

It was about 10pm and I was at Namsan tower with Haechan. I don't know why, but these days, I've been spending more time with Haechan than my own boyfriend. To be fair, Sungchan hasn't been reaching out to me and Haechan is, which made me a little suspicious because they have the same schedule and I don't know why Haechan has time for me and Sungchan doesn't. I haven't been feeling well these days and I really needed Sungchan to at least text me those long texts he would send me from time to time but he hasn't sent me anything. I've tried and tried to talk to him but he hasn't responded or anything. Haechan being able to spend time with me instead of Sungchan is making me doubt Sungchan's love for me. He promised he would love me for a long time but he's distancing himself right now. There's no way he doesn't have the same schedule as Haechan. They're in the same group and if anything, Haechan would be more busy than Sungchan since he's his senior in terms of debut. I pushed away all of my
thoughts when Haechan grabbed my hand and pulled me to make a love lock with him.

"Why?" I ask, clearly upset and Haechan sighs, trying to cheer me up. I appreciate his effort, but I've been asking about Sungchan the whole time and he's been ignoring my questions and just talking about himself. He even told me to ask him myself as if I haven't been trying for the past few weeks. I rolled my eyes and followed his league since I've never done such a romantic thing like this before. Mostly because Sungchan is never available.

"These love locks are usually for couples, but since we're friends, this is our friendship lock." Haechan smiles at me and I stay stone-faced. If only I could do this with Sungchan, it would be so sweet and romantic and probably remind me of when we used to be so in love.

"Don't I have to throw the key in the river or something?" I ask bluntly and Haechan nods, handing me the pink lock and my spare key.

"What should we write?" He asks and I shrug my shoulders, giving him the lock. He just sighs and writes something down, showing me when he's done.

For endless happiness
Haechan ♡ Miyoung

"Do you like it?" He asks and I shrug. He nods and places the lock on the gate and throws the key in the river. He didn't even ask if I threw mine and just took my hand and led me back to the van. It's a good thing he didn't ask if I threw mine because I wasn't planning on throwing it anyways. I plan on coming back here, unlocking the lock, and getting rid of it before Sungchan could see it.

Haechan drops me back home and wishes me a good night. I tell him the same thing half-heartedly. Once I got inside of my apartment, I immediately took off my shoes, mask, hat, and large jacket and threw myself onto my bed. Since I don't have school tomorrow, I could sleep in as late as I wanted, which was something I definitely needed. Since I just got home, I felt gross and needed to change out of my casual clothes and into more comfortable ones. I didn't feel like showering and I already showered the other day so I went to brush my teeth and do my skincare and change and then I was fast asleep. I was hoping that Sungchan would at least try to call or text me once before I fell asleep but I didn't get any notifications. It's like he blocked me or removed my phone number or something. Instead of worrying too much about it, I just tried to relax my mind and have a good nights rest. But the only thing on my mind was my feelings for Haechan.

I know for a solid fact that I don't have any romantic feelings for him whatsoever, but these random and late "hangouts" that he's taking me on are making me learn more about him beyond his on-screen personality. I'm only a year younger than him and he takes care of me very well. He's always asking if I've eaten my meals, did my homework, woke up, arrived to school, did well on a test, and all of that. Everything that Sungchan used to text and call me about are now replaced by Haechan. He's great and all, but he doesn't know me as well as he thinks he does. He may think that going on a couple of dates will help him get to know me personally, but he really knows nothing. He doesn't know my likes and dislikes and he doesn't know about my high school experience and past trauma. I never want anyone else to know about that though unless I know for sure that they're going to be by my side forever. Just like Yeonhee, Soona, and Sungchan.

The next morning I woke up to Yeonhee and Soona calling me. They were texting me because I didn't talk to them the whole day yesterday and they wanted to make sure that I was still alive. I laughed at how worried they were because knowing them, they probably would've came to my apartment and busted the door open to make sure I was still here. Once I replied to their text, they were telling me how relieved they were and updated me on stuff that happened yesterday. Apparently, Soona was able to get her first full-time job for teaching kids taekwondo. Believe it or not, even though Soona looks really mean on the outside, she has such a big and soft heart and she absolutely loves children. I was happy that she was able to get a good job and stop working multiple part-time jobs since she was always so stressed. For Yeonhee, she told me that she was able to get into the fan sign event for my brother's group. I told her not to make it obvious that she knows him and she told me not to worry. I checked if Sungchan texted or called me and nothing. At least I have my friends, right?

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