The Real You 2 || Jung Sungchan

Chapter 17

Sungchan:

"Hello?" I answer my phone that's been bothering me the whole time I was practicing my lines for Inkigayo.

"Hyung, it's me, Mingyeom." Mingyeom answers and I choke. Why is it an unknown number if it's Mingyeom? Does he know that I blocked him? I shouldn't have done that, I'm making him think that I don't want to talk to him but in all honesty, I really do.

"Mingyeom, what's up? Are you okay?" I ask and it was silence. I want to ask how Miyoung is doing but he probably hates me so much for hurting his sister like that. When I got to know Mingyeom, the one thing that I knew about him was how much he cares about Miyoung. He told me the reason why he's so protective over her is because he's scared of losing her like he almost did back then. I know how precious Miyoung is to him and the fact that I broke her heart means that he probably hates me so much. I don't blame him though, I hate myself just as much as him and Miyoung both hate me combined.

"You have to do something about Miyoung... ever since you broke up with her, she hasn't left her apartment. She's a mess and she needs you so much. I can't stand seeing my sister like this. Please, can you two just talk it out?" Mingyeom pleads and I sigh.

Hearing how the love of my life has been hurting without me made me want to quit and drop everything just to comfort her. But my job will always come first. I love Miyoung, I love her until the sun dies, but music is my life. I still miss her so much, but I can't keep going on like this. Does she really miss me? Does she realize how good I was to her when she started cheating on me? Never in a million years would I think that Miyoung, the innocent and shy girl who I fell in love with, would cheat on me with my own group mate. If I didn't introduce them to each other, this wouldn't have happened. That just gives me another reason to hate myself even more.

I haven't been able to sleep at all since I broke up with Miyoung. She doesn't know where my dorm is because I never wanted us to get caught and it was too much of a risk. I couldn't stop thinking about everything that we did together. We started dating around March 2020 and now it's April 2021. *Note: I pre-write all of my chapters which means I wrote this chapter in April 2021 hehe And in those 13 months, we only saw each other for less than 50% of the time. I felt so bad for her and I hope that she's doing better without me in her life. I always kept her waiting and I kept making these promises that I knew I couldn't fulfill. I haven't forgotten any of those promises and I really hope that she hasn't either.

At the same time, she lied to me. She promised me that she will try her best to understand me and that she will always stay loyal to me. She told me that she never wants to lose me and that I'm everything to her. But was I really her everything? If I was, then why didn't she reach out to me when Haechan first asked her out? I would've been okay with it if he didn't romantic feelings for her, but now I know how the both of them feel, and here I am, left alone and still thinking about her. I don't hate her at all and I don't hate Haechan, I already said that I hate myself more than anything. I want to go back to Miyoung, but she must be having fun with Haechan by now.

"Listen, I know it's hard... and I know that you wouldn't end things with Miyoung if it weren't for a good reason. Could you maybe... tell me what actually happened? Miyoung hasn't been able to open up to me. She keeps pushing me away." Mingyeom says and I sigh, looking around and making sure nobody else was around. Just to be extra sure, I went to the bathroom.

"I broke up with Miyoung because she was going out with Haechan behind my back. I introduced Miyoung to my members when I told them about our relationship because they suggested that I should. When Haechan and Miyoung first met, I noticed that he wouldn't stop talking to her. I didn't want to say anything at first since they just met and he's probably just curious, so I brushed it all off. But remember when we met during Music Bank? Haechan wouldn't stop asking about Miyoung and that's when I started getting more suspicious. Then I noticed that Haechan was getting glued to his phone and that he was always texting someone and then I found out it was Miyoung. He even had her as his wallpaper at one point and that broke my heart completely. I actually followed them on one of their dates and Haechan kept lying that I was busy when Miyoung was asking about me. I didn't want to follow them every time they met up so I just stopped because Miyoung stopped contacting me and that was enough information for me to know that she started having feelings for him. But one night I was getting more suspicious since Haechan was asking Johnny about the most romantic places in Seoul and he told him about the love locks. I followed them there and when they left, I saw what their love lock said and I knew that they were in love. And I talked with Haechan two weeks ago and he admitted that he was in love with Miyoung and she was in love with him too and she doesn't want me anymore. Since they spent so much time together, I believed him. So I broke up with her." I explain painfully. It's hard talking about a breakup especially when you love your ex girlfriend so much still. Mingyeom takes a while to respond and I don't blame him because it was a lot. A couple of minutes pass and Mingyeom lets out a long sigh.

"I hate Haechan." Mingyeom says angrily and ends the call. I stand there confused and look at my phone. I couldn't call him back because the number was unknown so I gave up and went back to my waiting room, where I got another text.

Unknown:
This is Mingyeom, save my new number since you blocked my old one.

Sungchan:
How did you get a new number?

Mingyeom:
I just got a new phone. I needed a new one anyways since I broke my other one.

Sungchan:
What do you mean you hate Haechan?

Mingyeom:
Leave it to me, I got it.

Sungchan:
What? Mingyeom...

Mingyeom:
Talk to you later hyung.

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I recommend playing "I Hate To Admit" while reading :(((( THE FEELS!!!! I hope you enjoyed! Also I want to indirectly say that everything in this book is a fantasy and none of it is real! :)