The Real You 2 || Jung Sungchan

Chapter 20

Miyoung:

When Yeonhee and Soona left last night, I texted Haechan and told him that I want to meet him the next day. He obviously agreed and now here I am, waiting for Haechan at an abandoned park so that we don't get caught. When Mingyeom left my place yesterday, I couldn't stop thinking about what he said. Sungchan loves me? Does he really? If he really loves me, then I'll come back to him, I just want to hear him say it just once. It was 3am and I have school in the morning but I didn't care because I needed to set boundaries between Haechan and I. If he doesn't admit to what he did, I'm going to just leave. Haechan soon arrived in a couple of minutes and opened his arms for a hug, I crossed my arms and he lowered his arms. He smiled at me and I stayed stone faced because I wanted to get this over with quickly.

"What did you want to talk about? Did you miss me?" He smiles and asks, I shake my head which causes him to slowly stop smiling.

"I'm not gonna waste time. Do you know what you did?" I ask and his face drops. If he plays the victim, I'm going to slap him, I need to control my temper since I have the same temper as Mingyeom. Haechan sighs and steps away from me.

"I'm sorry... for breaking you and Sungchan up. It's just that... I fell in love with you and I wanted you all to myself. I know it was really selfish of me and I apologize for my stupid and selfish actions. You and Sungchan are both important to me and I hate being the reason you two broke up. I don't even know why I did it in the first place. Maybe it was because I was jealous that Sungchan had this beautiful and smart girlfriend and I didn't even have the courage to ask someone for their name. I don't know what got into me, I'm sorry, Miyoung." Haechan bows to me and I stare blankly at him. Well that was easy... does he even mean it?

"Do you mean it?" I ask, raising an eyebrow. Haechan gets up from bowing at me and nods, avoiding eye contact with me.

"Haechan... the difference between you and Sungchan is that you don't love me for who I really am. You don't know anything about me other than what you see on the outside. All my life, I've been confined to other's perspective of me. They only saw me as beautiful, nothing else. You and many other people love me for all of the wrong reasons. You shouldn't love someone just for their looks, Haechan. I'm really flattered you... love me? But, you should know that I love Sungchan and he loves me for more than just my looks. Believe it or not, but you barely even know me. You don't even know half of what Sungchan knows about me. What I'm saying is... ever since you met me and started taking me out, you've seen me the wrong way. I'm more than just my looks. I'm not perfect. But you refused to see that side of me. That's why I love Sungchan so much, because he sees me the way you don't." I explain and Haechan nods along with his head down. I really hope he's at least listening though, this is really important, especially to me.

"I get it, Miyoung. I'm sorry... Will you... get back with Sungchan?" He asks and I nod.

"I guess since you two love each other so much, I can't do anything about it... I was wrong and I admit my mistakes. I'm sorry for removing Sungchan's phone number from your phone without your permission. I'm sorry for lying that I didn't know where Sungchan was. I'm sorry for taking you away from Sungchan. And I'm really really sorry for breaking you two up. I'm sorry, Miyoung." Haechan apologizes again, I just nod.

"He got the flu a couple of days ago and he hasn't been going to practice. He still went to Inkigayo today because he couldn't skip it, but he was struggling the whole time. Do you want me to bring you to him?" He asks and I hesitate to answer because I don't know if I trust him right now. Everything is just so suspicious and I don't know why he's being so nice all of a sudden.

"Just tell me the address of his dorm, I'll go on my own." I say and he nods, telling me the address as I write it down on the notes app on my phone. I turn around the leave but stop to say one last thing to Haechan.

"I appreciate your apology, but you really need to reflect on what you did. I don't want to see or talk to you for a while. Don't worry about me. Take care of yourself better. Goodbye." I say, going to my car and driving to the address he gave me.

Once I got to the building, I went to the floor and room number that Haechan gave me. I knocked on the door and Shotaro answered. I felt really bad that I had to wake them up, but Shotaro looked like he just got home. I bowed to him and he did the same, letting me into their dorm.

"I'm sorry for disturbing you." I apologize to Shotaro and he shakes his head.

"No! Don't worry! I just got home from practice. Sungchan is in his room, I'll be in mine if you two need me. He's super sick right now so be careful." Shotaro says and I smile and nod at him, going to Sungchan's room and knocking on the door.

I open the door and see Sungchan laying down on his bed, covered with blankets, ice pack on his head, water, medicine, and orange juice on his nightstand, and our favorite movie playing on his TV. He was sleeping but woke up when I entered the room, he slightly smiled and he could barely open his eyes. My heart ached at the sight of the man I love most being miserable and sick, but still having to go to work. I went to his side and took the ice pack off of his forehead, checking if it was still hot. I honestly didn't care if I was going to get sick again because I just wanted to be here with Sungchan.

"Sungchan, are you okay?" I ask, putting the ice pack back on his forehead and placing my hand on his cheek. He grabbed my hand and took it in both of his, I missed feeling the warmth of his hands. His hands are huge and mine are tiny so whenever he took one of my hands into both of his, I always felt butterflies.

"Miyoung... I'm so sorry." Sungchan says and I shake my head, tearing forming into my eyes.

"I'm sorry, Sungchan. I should've told you, this is all my fault. I'm so sorry for betraying your trust like that." I say as tears fall from my eyes, Sungchan opens his eyes and notices that I'm crying so he takes the ice pack off of his forehead and sits up from his bed, pulling me into his arms. He was so warm and I don't know if it's because he's sick or something else, but I didn't care, I was just happy to be alone with him.

"Don't cry, it's not all your fault. I should've confronted him earlier, I should've been more protective over you, I'm so sorry, Miyoung." He apologizes while he's holding me tightly. I couldn't stop crying, I didn't want to lose Sungchan as my boyfriend and I didn't want to be the reason the love of my life was in pain. I pulled away from the hug and sat down on his bed, holding his hands.

"Miyoung... I lov-" Sungchan smiles at me and tries to say before closing his eyes and falling forward, resting his head on my chest.

"Sungchan? Are you okay?" I ask, shaking him lightly but he doesn't budge.

"Sungchan! Are you still awake?" I ask again and my heart starts to ache. I pull away from Sungchan and he's totally passed out, I called an ambulance and Shotaro helped me take him to the hospital.

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Sorry again! Anyways! Recommended song is "The Rose Song" by Olivia Rodrigo! When I heard this song in HSMTMTS, I was like... this relates to Miyoung so much D: I hope you enjoyed this chapter! (The end is near btw) <3