Cheryl p.o.v
"Lauren I have a question. I don't want to make it awkward" I said to her turning around in my rolling chair.
"What's up?" She said doing her at random hair flip.
"Why are you so nice to me Lauren? Like all the clothes and shoes. For goodness sake I have a best vanity. Yet..you're so nice you're always trying to protect me Lauren..why?" I asked her.
She smiled and little bit then looked down.
"Well Cheryl why would I hurt the person I've gotten so close with. I can't give you the world but I have my heart I hope that's good enough" She said to me looking me in my eyes.
Not going to lie it gave me butterflies.
Butterflies? what? no way! maybe i'm hungry. yeah that's it ...
"I really thank you for this I-" I was cut off by my phone ringing. I looked at it and it was Toni.
Lauren saw the caller ID and she tensed up a bit I could see.
"Lauren don't freak out it's okay just give me a minute" I said standing up looking her in her eyes.
"No she doesn't des-" I cut her off by putting my hand on her face. I looked her in her eyes so she know I was telling the truth.
"It's okay I promise. You protect me enough take a break right now" I said softly. She looked away from me then looked back at me.
"Okay I trust you..you can hold your own" She said and walked out of my closet closing the door to give me privacy.
I propped my phone up and answered the call. I really didn't want to talk to her.
The call:
Connecting...
"Finally you picked up the phone. Cheryl let me explain myself" She pled and I laughed.
"That's cute"
"Cheryl listen to me stop acting like you don't care"
"I do Toni but you're a fucking cheater and asshole" I said tears forming in my eyes.
"Cheryl Im in Riverdale just let me talk to you"
"How do you know i'm here?"
"I just did can you meet me somewhere"
"No I can't and plus I have plans sorry hun" I said not caring about the Topic.
Don't get me wrong I'm hurt as hell I want to cry. I just can't show her i'm weak. I can't let that happen.
"Why not Cheryl?"
"For one you've been sleeping with someone else. Not only that you have a dick that I didn't know about"
"I was going to tell you that later when we started to"
"Well you threw that away didn't you?"
"Just meet me Cheryl or i'll find you"
"I guess we're playing hide and go seek then aren't we?"
With that I hung the phone up. I don't know why but I broke down crying. I didn't know what to do.
My life was falling apart at my hands it's like everything I touch turns to stone and falls apart.
First I got kidnapped then the love of my fucking life cheated on me. Now i'm here back at Riverdale. School is going to start soon and I'm living like this.
My mom and I haven't been on the best terms. Jason is dead and it's like i'm the only one who cares.
I need relief...
TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️
This is something you should never do for any reason.
I walked out of the closet and left the door open. I didn't see Lauren in the room my guess is she's eating.
I went to the bathroom and closed the door I locked it too. I rummaged through her medicine cabinet hoping to find something.
"Fuck where are they?" I said under my breath frustrated.
Then I found a razor. I quickly took the blade from it and threw the rest in the trash.
Cheryl do you really want to do this? it this something you want to do right now. It's been so long since you have.
Maybe it's time to stop.
I stood at the sink crying softly. I'm about to be a senior still dealing with this shit.
I can't take it anymore!
Without thinking I made cuts. Plenty of them. More than I thought I would make.
Blood was spilling from my arms. I put my hand over my mouth in disbelief. Why did I do this?
I slid down the wall and cried until I couldn't breathe. I wanted like to be over why is it so shitty?
It went from saying I love you and protecting me to I fucking hate you Toni.
Why did you mess with my head like that? I didn't need that In my life you know what I go through.
I cried and cried until my eyes were bloodshot red. I don't know what was happening to me. I grabbed a rag and wiped the blood off.
Then I cleaned the cuts on my arm. I didn't underestimate life. Maybe I should keep trying...or end it all trying.
I took my shoes off and sat in the corner crying. Until my eyes felt heavy and I drifted off to sleep.
Toni p.o.v
"Archie just hear me out man" I slightly yelled at him while I sat on his bed.
"You're lucky I even let you the hell in my house. I should be killing you right now" He said through his teeth.
Yes I fucked up but it was all for the moment I didn't mean anything I did with her.
"Archie just tell me where Cheryl is I know I fucked up I know I didn't mean to do it" I said from the bottom of my heart.
"I will never tell you where she is I don't even want to se you near her. Our senior year is coming up you will not ruin this for her" He said mad.
There is no way that I can fix this. I've done it...i've fucked up.
"I get if I fucked up but I'm trying to fix it okay?" I said frustrated again.
"You're a sorry excuse Toni. Just leave we don't want to see your face anymore" He said through his teeth.
I know what I did as a mistake but now I'm this whore animal. Someone who doesn't give a shit about Cheryl.
"I fucking care about her Archie" I said standing up saying it through my teeth. I stepped up to him.
"You didn't and you never did Toni you ruined her life for the rest of her life. I thought we were best friends"He said mad yet could still let a tear fall from his face.
Fuck . Fuck . Fuck . Toni why are you so fucking stupid. You shouldn't have done that to the only woman that understood me. You're stupid I hate you!
"Archie I said l'm sorry I didn't mean it" I said with my voice cracking from holding back tears.
I have up and left. He wasn't going to tell me where she was so there was no point in trying.
I was gonna have to find her myself.
