Toni p.o.v
I don't understand this why would Cheryl choose someone other than me. I mean I know I messed up but I didn't mean to.
She was gone and I had needs.
"And that doesn't change the fact that you hurt the only person who loved you deeply" I heard from behind me.
I was talking out loud of course Toni of course.
"Leave. Me. Alone you ruined my life" I growled at her.
"It's not my fault that you wanted to have sex with me. Didn't I say that you had Cheryl? Didn't I say that we didn't need to do it? I'm clear on my end your not" She said back to me.
I looked at Normani who was leaning against the door way.
"I know I was drunk Mani I didn't know what I was doing" I defended myself. Tears running down my eyes.
"So when we did it and you weren't sober that was being drunk too? maybe i'm not going to the right kind of clubs" She said and laughed at the end.
"How is this funny to you? why won't you help me?" I asked her. I needed help I was basically begging for it.
"Because I know what I have to do to get to Cheryl you don't figure yourself out and stop blaming other people for your mistakes" She said to me.
I was mad at her yes but she was right I don't know what I'm doing. I'm just hoping that every falls right but it won't.
"I just need to talk to Cheryl Normani and I'll be okay" I said dropping to my knees and crying.
I'm hurting...bad...i've never hurt in my heart this bad. I just want to do I want to not be here.
"You need to get your life together Toni. Life isn't going to be handed to you cause that's what you're used to" She said to me.
I couldn't help but cry. She's right and I have to face that I'm not always right with what I do.
"If that's all I know I can't change anything. My mother left for a better life and left me back something. I've been living along since ai was 16. My whole life is a lie" I said panicking.
God why did you fuck up!
you're stupid!
"You can only answer your questions that's all up to you. Your have to love her enough to try." She said to me.
She was right I need to stop doing this. I can't always be this hard Toni I need to grow up.
All I need to be complete is Cheryl. I just need her to fill the hole in my heart. But I don't think she will ever be back for me.
I fucked up big time and I can't fix it.
"So what am I gonna do huh? wait until someone gets with Cheryl?" I asked her and I looked at her.
"No you get off of your ass" She said to me coming closer.
"It's crazy Normani we had sex and you like me but want to help me. Why is that?" I asked her.
I know it was quite bold. I just needed to ask because that didn't make sense. That was nice of her but it's different.
"Because Cheryl needs you Toni I don't and I don't have feelings for you, Your sex is just simply good" She said with a slight chuckle.
I dubbed my ditch and I dug it deep....
"She won't talk to me, how am I supposed to fix anything between us?" I asked her putting my jacket on .
"You just show up that'll be the best thing to do. Tomorrow i'll get Lauren away from her." She said.
I thought about it and maybe it could be a good idea but you never know. She might think my crazy.
"No I don't think we should do that" I said wiping some of the tears from my eyes.
You did this to yourself. This is your lesson this can't be you.
Shut up! I know I messed up she was just a booty call!
Yeah and that's still you booty call now? i'm surprised she hasn't left.
"Then do what you want to do. I don't know what to tell you. You're so mixed up." She said starting to walk away.
"Wait what do you mean?" I asked her and she stopped.
She turned around to look at me. I looked back at her.
"Toni you're sleeping with me but you want me to help you get Cheryl back" She said raising her eyebrow.
"It's nothing like that" I said covering up the truth.
"Then what is it like? You want me to be your sloppy seconds?" She asked me and I was shook that she even said that.
"Why would you say something like that you know I care about you"
"But you also want Cheryl and a future with her and you want to sleep with her" She said. I couldn't feel my body.
What did she just say?
"Why did you say it like that. Cheryl isn't like you" I said standing up.
"Then what is she like?" She asked me and I froze. I didn't know what to say. This is too much to deal with.
"She's someone I wanna marry and have kids with one day" I answered her.
"That's the same thing you told me. Find something better to say to your girlfriends"She said through her teeth calmly.
She was hiding her anger.
I didn't say anything I just sat there. I didn't know what to say at all. All I knew was I fucked up and there's nothing I can do about it now.
Cheryl p.o.v
It was the next day and I was in bed. The sun was shining bright through the window. I felt someone behind me. I instantly knew that it was Lauren.
I'm not going to lie what she did to me was amazing. I don't think J could ever forget it.
I shifted a little in her arms and she held me a little tighter. It's like she didn't want me to slip away.
"Mmm Cheryl don't move" She groaned as she held me closer.
I got butterflies in my stomach. It made me happy that she wanted to be by me.
I relaxed into her arms and she kissed the back of my head. I love how she treated me. It wasn't about the money.
I just liked how she adored me.
"Cheryl?" I heard her morning voice say. I responded to her with yes.
She took a while to respond to me.
"I have something to tell you..." She said.
What she told me next shook me. I can't believe it!
