Worth the Risk (a Matthew Gray Gubler fanfic)

Chapter Twelve

We never make it to the bed, we just did it on the couch. It wasn't super adventurous this time, but I'm okay with that.

Both of our bodies are sweaty and our limbs are tangled. We are both still panting from the events that just occurred. Matthew moves to get off of me, but I grab him. I let him go when I realize what I have done.

"Sorry, I like to cuddle. I wasn't thinking when I did that." But he doesn't reply.

He grabs his boxers and slides them on, then he hands my panties and bra to me. He disappears into his room.

Okay? What the fuck do I do? Should I leave?

I go to the bathroom to pee and clean up.

When I get back, I sit back down on the couch. As soon as I sit, Matthew walks back into the living room with a blanket. He comes over to the couch and sits on the opposite side. I just stare at him and he opens the blanket, as an invitation to cuddle. I smile and crawl over to his side of the couch. He wraps the blanket around the both of us and says, "It's okay. I don't mind a good cuddle."

He can't see me, but I am smiling harder than I need to be. We are just fuck buddies, right?

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I wake up on Monday morning in Matthew's bed. I'm not sure how I got here last night, but it's super comfortable nonetheless.

I roll over to see Matthew still asleep. He looks so peaceful in this moment. I can't wake him so I just lay there with him. Carefully, I drape my arm over his stomach and lay my head on his chest, trying to pretend that I just woke up this way. It stays like that for a while until I start to feel him stir.

When he looks down, he sees me laying there. He smiles and wraps his arms around me,
"Good morning."

His morning voice is so raspy and sexy.

I giggle, "Good morning, sleepyhead. How did you sleep?"

"Better than I have in a long time."

I would like to think that it's because of me. It definitely is that way for me.

Matthew rolls over and looks at his phone, checking the time. Deciding it's time to get up, he untangles himself from my grasp. I don't push it. If I push the cuddling, I might just push him away.

He puts on a shirt and some sweatpants and heads to the kitchen. I get up and go to the bathroom, then meet him in the kitchen.

He looks up at me, "I hope you like eggs and bacon. That's kind of all I have right now."

"Yes, that works for me." I smile at his gesture.

While Matthew cooks, I sit on the couch. I remember that I left my phone in the room. So, I go get it. When I unlock my phone, I see 8 texts from Ashlyn and 3 phone calls. Two from Ash and one from my mother.

Ashlyn: Haley? Where are you?

Ashlyn: HALEY ANSWER ME!

And the next few go on like that....

They were all from this morning so I decide that I will call her, for her sanity.

She picks up the phone in a panic, "HALEY! Are you okay?!"

"Yes Ash I'm fine."

"Oh God! You scared the shit out of me! You weren't here when I got up and I was gonna make you breakfast." She sounds relieved. "Where are you anyway?"

I stutter, trying to lie, "Uh I am at work. Yeah, they called me in a little early today. Sorry I didn't want to wake you and I forgot to text you about it."

Good one, Haley.

"Oh! Okay! Well I will let you go, you know, work. I will see you this evening."

"Okay, bye Ash." I hang up the phone.

I walk back into the living room but I am stopped when I see food on the table in the kitchen. Matthew asks, "Can I get you some water or orange juice to drink?"

I grin and nod, "Yes water is fine. Thank you."

We sit at the table and eat our breakfast in a comfortable silence. I get to thinking, I hate lying to Ashlyn all of the time. If or when she ever finds out, she might hate me forever. I guess I just need to see how it plays out. No jumping to conclusions.

When I finish breakfast, I look at the time. Shit, it's 10:30! I have to be at work in 30 minutes. I jump up and start to scramble.

I think I startled Matthew because he starts asking, "What's wrong? Is everything okay?"

"Yeah sorry. I just have to be at work in 30 minutes. I didn't realize the time."

I gather all of my things and head towards the door.

"So sorry, Matthew! I will text you! Bye!"

I hated to rush out so quickly but I don't need to be late.

On my way to work, I decide to call my mom. The phone rings three times before it goes to voicemail. I don't bother leaving her a message, she wouldn't check it anyway.

My phone buzzes with a text message.

Mom: Sorry honey, I'm in a parent-teacher conference with Ethan. I will call you back.

Oh well. She will forget to call me back, I just know it.

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Author's note:
Sorry that the chapters are so short guys! I have ADHD so I get distracted easily and I can't concentrate on one thing for too long. I am trying though!

Thanks for reading!