ikigai [DOTAE] ✅

Chapter 40

A/N suuuuper important question here

Would you like me to just end the book when they get together, or would you like me to tie up some ends, like Chenle and Jisung, the whole Sungchan thing, and the Xiaojun and Yangyang are kinda a thing that I had mentioned briefly in chapter 22

Or would you like me to write seperate books for the seperate members who are in couples, for instance, Johntens relationship story, Renhyucks, Nomin, XiaoYang, Kuneil, and all the others that I don't remember

Lol just a question

ANYWAYS

I'm still deciding on if I should add smut or not... It's probably a little difficult to write smut when IVE NEVER EVEN KISSED SOMEONE

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Anyways

Doyoung POV
(Haven't had one of these for a while)

"Doyoung wait."

Doyoung turned around at the sound of Taeyong's voice

"Yes Taeyong?"

"I- I'm sorry for uh... Uhm... The uh... For pushing you over?"

".... No need to make it sound so forced Tae."

Doyoung was a little pissed and confused right now, he was to tired to put up with Taeyong's shit today

"Look Doyoung I don't know why I panicked i just did."

"Well yeah, I'm a little confused myself, one day you're giving me hickies and leading me on, and the next you're pushing me away when I try to kiss you, what did I do? Huh Taeyong? What changed? Did I do something? Did you meet someone else?"

"Doyoung."

"Is it Jaehyun? Did you fall in love with Jaehyun?"

"Doyoung."

"I mean that's fine Taeyong, as long as you're happy, but you could've told me before I tried to kiss you."

"Doyoung."

"I would've understood, feelings change, people change, I completely understand it-."

"DOYOUNG!"

Doyoung shut his mouth at the sudden raise in Taeyong's voice

"Doyoung shut up for two minutes and let me explain."

Doyoung kept his mouth shut as Taeyong moved to sit on the edge of the foot of his bed, Doyoung still standing in front of the door

(A/N just for a slight explanation of Taeyong's room, the foot of the bed is facing the door, so you walk into the room and Taeyong's bed/feet are the first thing you see pretty much lol)

"I do like you Doyoung... I.... I love you actually... I just want to keep you safe, and I can't do that if we're together in that way, I can't always protect you if we were in a relationship, I can barely protect you right now, I can't have you getting hurt again."

"Lee Taeyong, I don't care, I don't care if I get hurt, I can get hurt a thousand times, but as long as you're here I don't care, please understand Taeyong, I love you, I know that you're a mafia boss, I know, but I still love you, Taeyong you mean so much to me... Please understand."

Taeyong looked up at Doyoung

"Are you sure?"
Taeyong asked, standing up

"Yes."