I awake ontop of Aubrey's bare chest. I move and my whole body begins to ache. I roll over, so I am not touching Aubrey and replay last nights events in my mind.
I remember it being fun, but also I remember the pain. Maybe if I would've had a few drinks in me, I would've been better. Looser. I move so I'm sitting up in bed. I look over at the sleeping Aubrey. I stand up and slip on a robe. Then I walk across the hall to the bathroom and turn on the shower, blasting the hot water. I slip off the robe and go into the scalding spray. Then I let my tears fall, finally.
I knew I wasn't ready. I knew that I shouldve just said no. I cried for my lost innocence. Although it was with Aubrey, a boy I've been in love with for forever, it still made me upset.
Slowly I message a strawberry scented shampoo in my hair and I hear the door open. The curtain is pulled back and in steps Aubrey. He wraps his arms around me, holding me tightly. "You were crying in your sleep." He whispers to me, as he moves his hands so he can wash out my shampoo. He grabs my conditioner, and puts it through my hair. I turn to face him, and wrap my arms around his chest. He presses his lips to my forehead.
"I'm okay Aubrey. I promise." I whisper as I press my lips to his chest. We stay like that for awhile, then he rinses the conditioner from my hair. I step out from the shower, and into a warm towel that he has wrapped around me. I pad back into my room and into my closet.
"Here."He whispers behind me, as he hands me his t-shirt. I nod and slip it on, along with a pair of sweatpants and a hoodie.
He wears a sweatshirt and jeans. "Look. I'm.. going to go to Bailey's to study. I perfer to be alone okay?" I say quietly, not meeting my eyes.
He nods and kisses my lips. "I love you Allie. Nothing can change that." He says as he walks down the stairs and I hear the door slam.
I turn back into my room and realize that Ed still has my backpack. I grab a different backpack and fill it with a couple of my favorite books, and I then too, walk out the door and head towards Bailey's.
I push open the door and hear the tinkling of the bell. I go and sit in my spot, and throw my backpack on the table and set my head in my arms, making sure the tears wont fall out. "Allie." A soft voice whispers to me. I feel a coffee cup set down beside me, and I hear the footsteps walk away. Slowly I sit up, only to realize that Ed is sitting across from me.
My eyes well up with tears again, but i force them not to fall down. "Allie, are you okay?" He says gently.
That's all it takes, four words to make the tears fall down. He gets up and sits next to me, and wraps an arm around my shoulder. I lean into him, as the tears drip down. Slowly, he stands up, and walks me into the back room.
There is a table and chairs in the back and he pulls me toward the chair. I sit down and then I can't hold it in anymore. I begin to sob. Ed pulls up a chair next to me and grabs my hand.
"Allie. You don't have to tell me. But I wan't to help you." He whispers gently and I squeeze his hand, as if the harder I squeeze, the less tears will come out. I shake my head violently, hoping the story wont bubble off my lips after all.. I barely know Ed.
Slowly my tears dry up and I stop sobbing, I just sit there, numb, just like my heart. His arm is still wrapped around me, tightly. "I'm okay." I say lightly, my voice trembling.
"I'm not sure if I should pretend like I should believe you, or push you to tell me." He whispers to me.
"No, I.. Lets just say, I was pressured to do something I didn't want to. Even as they begged me, I still said no, up until it was time and we were so far into it that I only choice I had was to keep going."
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Taking me with it (An Ed Sheeran FanFic)
FanfictionAllie and Ed have gone through so much, that Allie isn't so sure anymore. They had just lost a child, and Allie has fallen into depression. But when Ed writes a song for their lost son, Allie falls back into a flash back of her and Ed's life, meetin...
