Don't Let Go Of Me

Chapter 5

//TW ED//

"Dream? Hey dream the food is going to burn you idiot!"

Sapnap forced him out of his thoughts, shoving him slightly to the side to get to the bubbling pot. Oh yeah, he was supposed to cook.

"George buddy, you mind waiting with sap over at the couch so I can not burn our lunch?"

A soft whine could be heard as the boy got off of him, fingers pulling his shirt back in place in the process.

"Stop getting all touchy like that without me or I might assume that you two are keeping secrets from me~"

The tiny pout in his voice was clearly audible and brought a good laugh to the two of them. Sap could be so attention needy from time to time, almost as bad as dream.

"Come here big boy, lemme give you a pity hug then."

George opened his arms and grinned this sweet grin of his, pearly teeth showing while his cheeks were slightly red tinted. It looked adorable and made Dreams heart flutter again. What were these boys doing to him?

The two of them continued to move to the big couch, flopping onto it in a cuddle pile. A soft sigh left the blondes lips as he turned back to the cooking, slowly stirring in the pasta he was making.

"Claaaaaayyy how long? My stomach is growling! I need food to grow and you know that!"

"Actually I am more likely to still be growing because age wise-"

"Shut up sap I need food to grow! And beside that, I think we both agree that you don't need more food."

A small wheeze slipped him, making George's cheeks heat up with a mix of anger and embarrassment. Sap just turned his head to the side and looked outside the window of the living area.

If Dream didn't knew that Nick himself always joked about his weight too, he would almost say that he looked sad. That was probably just an imagination tho.

"Guys I'm done, you mind setting the table?"

As he brought the filled bowls over a second later, George was the only one seated at the table. Raising an eyebrow he sat the three bowls down, carefully sitting down next to the other.

"Georgie where is Sap?"

"Well he said that he forgot about something urgent and went upstairs."

The brunette simply shrugged and started to dig into his lunch, Dream although wasn't that carefree anymore.

Sap loved his pasta, he even came late to an exam once because he wanted to get a taste before leaving. No way would he simply skip it and leave with such a lame excuse.

"You know, imma quickly bring this up to him, maybe he wants to eat it while doing his stuff."

"Oh good idea! You honestly are a good friend Dream."

Yeah he had to admit that this hurt. He didnt know why this one word stabbed his heart so much. Almost like Gogy pulled a philza.

Shaking all his thoughts away, the tall blond quickly grabbed the bowl that was for Sap and stepping up the stairs to the raven haired's room.

"Hey Nick?"

No response could be heard from the inside so Dream tested if the door was locked, which to his surprise it wasn't. On the other hand there also was no Sapnap on the inside. Where did this boy go? Didnt something urgent come up?

A quiet rumble from the bathroom inside Nick's room made his head turn. Sap's room was the only one that had a little bathroom built in. In the original sketch the room had been planned as a room for parents so the bathroom was something like an extra added thing.

Dream never really longed for it and neither did the others, so they had simply sorted it out with a little game. In the end Sapnap got the room, leading to this point now.

The noise got him slightly worried, putting the bowl to the side to slightly try and push the handle down. It was locked. What even was he thinking? What if Sap simply needed to take a dump and he just interpreted way too much into this.?

"Dude what do you want? M on the toilet man"

His voice sounded strained and out of breath, but not that kind of exhausted when you push out your shit too hard, it was another kind.

As someone who was very sensitive to the way voices sounded, the worry inside him only grew. He had gotten used to analyze voice patterns so he could easier tell emotions in peoples voices apart.

"Sap you simply vanished.. I am worried. You don't sound OK if I am honest.. I know this kind of voice because I heard it before. You remember the day that you moved in? You were so nervous that your stomach turned and you threw up in the hallway. Your voice now sounds exactly the same way as when you apologized after Nick.."

Clay put his forehead against the cool door, listening to Sapnap suck in some air inside. He felt like he committed a crime and Dream had caught him red handed.

"Can you come out? If you feel sick I can make you some tea and-"

"I did it on purpose."

That statement had him taken back. Not that he didnt include it in his overthinking process, but it had been very low on the possibility scale.

Nick had done it on purpose.

"Can you come out? I don't really want to talk through the door.. If not that's fine, just know that I am here and-"

A quiet click aired and a second later warmth was spreading through his body. Sapnap was hugging him like his life depended on it, face hidden so dream wouldn't be able to judge or read any emotions from it.

"There there its OK.. Let's get you to the bed love"

In the moment the nickname seemed fit, he didn't even think about it before it slipped from his lips so easily. It felt right, it felt so right to call him that too. All he wanted was to take care of his boy, to make him feel better.

"I am sorry... Iamsorry, iamsorry, iamsorry!"

"Nick, nick hey.. Hey.. Listen to my voice. Its fine, its fine now, I promise its alright."

The smaller one sobbed quietly but his whole body was shaking beside him.

"Sometimes all I think about is you.."

Dreams voice was slightly shaky, nervous about his singing voice being heard. Right now his own nervousness didnt matter tho. All that mattered was Sapnap and the fact that singing calmed him.

"Late nights in the middle of June.."

It didn't feel as bad after he got started with it. The boy wasn't very confident in the music he made, but it was for Nick, and that was all that counted.

"Heat waves been faking me out..
Can't make you happier now.."

A tiny tug on his shirt had his eyes darting down, staring into big, bright blue orbs. Sadnap's eyes were beautiful, breath taking almost. Those were the most clear eyes that ever looked back at him.

"You do make me happy Clay. Fuck you make me so happy its frustrating.. Its so frustrating.."

// I always forget to update on wattpad damn, so imma put some more chapters out today. I cross posted this on AO3 where I post new chapters first //