Don't Let Go Of Me

Chapter 17

This chapter happens right after chapter 14 were George confessed his crush. The last chapters were a flashback :)

Dark liquid.

Dark liquid filling his lungs up to the brim, suffocating him on the mess he had created.

How stupid was he to think he could truly have it all? Stupid stupid him. Stupid stupid boy.

His eyes darted up the the brunette before glancing over at the counter, not wanting George to see the upcoming tears in them.

"That's... Great."

Everything inside him clenched onto itself, making him give a quiet whimper of discomfort.

"You really think so? I had this crush for a while now.. I just really became aware of it after the kiss in the hallway."

The ringing in his ears grew louder and louder. These feelings inside him starting to change too fast for his own comfort.

Sadness turned into anger, into disgust, into him wanting to beg for his love, into him wanting to wrap his fingers around his throat and just squeeze till he wouldn't have to listen to this anymore.

It scared him. This prominent urge to choke or just quieten his crush to the point of no return.

His teeth ground against each other as he set up to speak again, only for George to beat him to it.

"I kinda have to thank you for it, if it wasn't for you trying to overpower me that day and then leaving without notice, I might never have realized these feelings."

Now he just wanted to throw up. Right there in front of George's feet.

It was his fault. His fault he lost George.

Pathetic.

Dizziness started to take over, clouding his vision and the ringing getting so loud that he could hardly make out what George said.

All he could see was his lips part and close but no sound could be processed in his current state.

He hated this. He hated how he couldn't control anything. He felt powerless.

Pitiful.

"Dream, hey dream breath slower!"

The blond shook his head, slowing his breathing not being possible as he literally felt like suffocating right now.

"Imma, fuck imma get sapnap! Stay.. Uhm stay there OK?"

Everything was such a blur. Little colorful specs filling his vision and a sharp pain came from his knees.

His legs had stopped supporting him and now he was just a pitiful pile on the ground.

The next seconds seemed ages long, dragging out like a movie played in slow motion.

He felt sapnap before his eyes could focus on anything, those smells of wood and herbs flooding his senses. Then there was another scent, soft and clean with hints on vanilla.

George?

Each of them were at his side, cuddling and basically trapping him between them.

This pressure was nice, hell, being held was nice.

"Open ur mouth for me dream."

Calmness swept over him in slow and heavy waves, just making him realize how exhausted he was just from what happened.

"Yes like that, we are here, calm down dear"

"We both got you sweetie."

Why were their voices so beautiful. He couldn't stop them from replaying in his head.

Your fault.

Oh no. Those weren't their beautiful voices. Those were the voices inside him trying to hurt him.

It felt suffocating. Everything felt so damn suffocating.

They pity you. That's the only reason they still stick with you dream, don't you realize that? They don't want you! You're a waste of space.

The blond tugged and struggled against the two boys on his side, effectively pulling out of their embrace, tumbling into a kneeling position. Something plastic was yeeted into an unknown direction.

"Dream what-"

"Don't touch me! Just tell me I'm a waste of space! Just tell me to leave so you can be together with sapnap and be happy! Just tell me it doesn't matter that it hurts so bad to see you two like that.. To see you as more than friends."

The tears were dripping off his chin as he got up, turning his head to smile at them trough a forced smile. He had told them.

Nothing was holding him back anymore. He could leave, he could leave this place.

Both George and sapnap couldn't even find the words to answer to dream before said just slowly walked backwards, body still shaking from the tears.

Luckily their bodies moved on their own this time, not wanting a repeat from the first time dream had just bolted and ran away.

Sapnap grabbed for dreams arm, while George went straight for the others waist, trapping him in an iron grip.

"Please just let me go, please I just.. I just wanna go."

The pleading turned more and more into desperate sobbing than actual words.

"Dream please. Don't go this time.. Please I love you please.."

Sapnap whispers were quiet but audible to the brunette, giving him a silent stab of pain into his heart. At the same time he wanted nothing more than just kiss dream till these tears stopped.

"I love him too."

Dark eyes shot up to analyze the words that just left the Brits mouth.

"You do?"

"Fuck yes I liked both of you idiots since I moved in here for fucks sake.."

George gave an audible sigh, eyes darting over at dream, who could do nothing more than stare at both of them wide eyed.

"Ditto.. Even before that actually.. I had the biggest fucking crush on dream and when we all three played together for the first time I just.. Fell in love a second time.. God that sounds straight out of one of these weird fanfics..."

A snort filled the room, dream not being able to hold back a laugh at their sudden confessions.

"I love you both too you idiots I swear.. You guys are dogwater"

The blond just couldn't help but laugh, and after a second the other two just tagged along. All of them just mushed together in one cuddlepile on the floor.