𝒉𝒂𝒊𝒌𝒚𝒖𝒖 𝒐𝒏𝒆𝒔𝒉𝒐𝒕𝒔 ꒰⑅ᵕ༚ᵕ꒱˖♡

↳🥀 ˖° | 𝒔𝒂𝒌𝒖𝒂𝒕𝒔𝒖 ; 𝒇𝒆𝒆𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈𝒔

" do you even love me? "

those words echoed sakusa's head as he lay awake on his bed.

' of course i do love you. i love you so much '

he should've said those words.

" am i just a burden to you?! "

the image of the crying man breaking down in front of him popped in his head and his heart broke at the other's distraught expression.

' no you're not. i love you so much and you're so important to me. '

he should've expressed his emotions, but he didn't.

" what... what even are we? "

his eyes were filled with tears and held despair.

a despair he had cause himself.

he shook his head off these thoughts and decided to head to the kitchen.

maybe a glass of water would do him good.

yeah, that would help him relax.

he stood by the counter with a glass of water in front of him.

the apartment felt empty without him around and that's sakusa's fault.

it's always his fault.

he felt his jaw tremble and he fell on his knees, dropping the glass of water along with him.

there were water and broken glass in front of him, some even soaking on his clothes but that was the least of his concerns when he started sobbing uncontrollably.

a wave of self-pity, self-hate and despair crash onto him.

maybe this is how he felt too.

' you're so selfish ' , he said to himself in his head over and over.

tears filled his face and he screamed in anger and frustration.

he didn't know to whom that anger is for, but he knows he's one of them.

upon hearing the scream, komori, his neighbour and cousin, rushed in his apartment.

" what's wrong?! " he called out loud, worry evident on his face.

" ko- komori " , sakusa replied weakly.

" kiyoomi?! where are you?! "

" ki... the kitchen. "

komori ran to the kitchen and saw sakusa kneeling infront of a pile of broken glasses and a puddle of water.

" what happened here? " , he gently asked, upon seeing his cousin's state.

sakusa looked up at him, with tear filled eyes and a frown.

" atsumu...h- he left " , he whispered before breaking down to sobs again.

" oh... kiyoomi " , komori walked to sakusa and hugged him.

" it's my fault. it's all my fault. "

" shh " , the brown haired boy rubbed his back. " let it all out. "

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꒰⑅ᵕ༚ᵕ꒱˖ᵃᵘᵗʰᵒʳ'ˢ ⁿᵒᵗᵉ♡

I've been listening to line without a hook on loop for hours now and it reminds me so much of sakuatsu ha ha

also im planning on making this toxic sakuatsu playlist and story (based on the playlist im making)

idk maybe im just a sadist like that.

ha ha

sorry it's short and weirdly written wksnks

also 494 READS WHAT 30 VOTES WHAT

THANK YOU AAAAA

どうもありがとうございます！！
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