𝒉𝒂𝒊𝒌𝒚𝒖𝒖 𝒐𝒏𝒆𝒔𝒉𝒐𝒕𝒔 ꒰⑅ᵕ༚ᵕ꒱˖♡

↳🌼 ˖° | 𝒊𝒘𝒂𝒐𝒊 ; 𝒔𝒂𝒇𝒆

vent story. triggering stuff just implied though. you dont have to read it tbh. idk why i wrote this but,,, any,, release would work. i kinda feel stupid for feeling like this,, so um,,, yeah not edited

oikawa shut his eyes tight and pulled onto his hair. even with his eyes closed, the tears won't stop flowing out. his hurts from lack of sleep, exhaustion and overthinking but he can't stop.

he felt like he's going insane

it was a monday night, 12 am flashed red on his digital clock but he can't sleep. his mind was racing with thoughts and he felt like everything was falling apart.

he can't stop crying and shaking, he can barely breathe and putting his hands over his mouth to muffle his sobs didn't help but he has to be quiet.

his family was asleep and he can't wake them up because he's overthinking about things that probably never happened.

' what if it really never happened? what if I'm just putting ideas in my head? '

this made him panic even harder.

what if he's overreacting? what if it's all just coincidence?

it would just be better if this brain just... stop forgetting things.

" why. won't. you. remember. "

he hit his head in between words, hoping it'd help but it just made his headache worse.

but what if his hunch was real? but what if something what if it really happened? what would he do now? his life would be ruined! it's all done for him! how would he go overseas now to achieve his dreams if he had to deal with such memory?! what will happen to him now?

this is all too much for him, the thoughts in his head raced faster and he felt his heartbeat accelerate too.

he's definitely going insane.

shakily, he grabbed his phone and called the only person he can trust.

" oi, why are you awake at this time? you better not be overworking yourself again " , his boyfriend and pillar, iwaizumi, scolded lightly. his voice raspy, due to the fact that he just woke up.

oikawa didn't respond, just breathed heavily through the speaker, his breath hitching and shaking and that's when iwa realized that there's something wrong.

" tooru? are you okay? what's wrong? " he asked worriedly, now fully awake. oikawa didn't respond again.

" can you stay on the phone? I'm gonna run there. wait for me, okay? "

iwaizumi didn't wait for a response and got up from his bed, grabbed a jacket and some slippers and ran. he was just wearing pajamas but that didn't bother him, he knew that he was needed.

their houses weren't far from each other, only few streets away. iwa needed oikawa on the phone to make sure he's still there and not doing anything stupid, or would suddenly faint from exhaustion. he kept muttering reassuring words through the phone while running to the other's house.

" I'm here, baby, open up " , he said when he reached the taller boy's house.

oikawa was already waiting at the door so he just had to open it for his boyfriend. and when he did, iwaizumi's heart dropped at the sight.

oikawa look,,, distressed. his usually neat brown hair was disheveled, his face was red from crying and his eyes and cheeks were puffy and tearstained. even with his eyes puffy and red from crying, the bags under his eyes were evident. his skin was pale, not it's usual glowy pale but sicky pale.

he looks tired, pained and... not okay.

oikawa was about to burst into tears and drop on his knees to sob but iwaizumi caught him and held him close.

" i don't know why I'm acting like this I'm so sorry, " he said through his sobs.

iwaizumi caught on to what he was talking about, what his boyfriend was stressing about lately, and rubbed his back while assisting him back into his bedroom. " shh it's okay. it's all going to make sense someday. "

they sat on his bed, just iwaizumi cradling oikawa in his arms while the latter cried on his shoulder. " I'm so scared. I'm so so scared. "

" if it even happened, then you're safe now. we just have to get it sorted. but if it didn't, then it's okay too. you're safe and it's all okay. "

this calmed oikawa down a bit and they just stayed in the same position until he completely stopped crying.

he just blankly stared at the wall in front of him while his boyfriend continued to hug him and rub his back.

" iwa? "

" hmm? "

" I'm not crazy, right? I'm not going insane, right? "

" no. you're not. you're the same old oikawa tooru whatever happens or whatever you remember or not remember. "

oikawa hummed in reply.

" iwa? "

" yes? "

" you're real, right? I'm real, right? this is all real, right? "

" yes. yes we are real. "

" iwa? "

" yes? "

" thank you. i love you so much. "

" i love you too. for now let's just sleep, okay? "

" okay. "