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tw;;disturbing imagery, implied mental illness, night terror/nightmare, panic/anxiety?? basically heavy stuff, also not edited i wrote this at 3 am haha

akaashi sat there, on the edge of a cliff above the sea. his wrist watch telling him it was 5 pm but that was obvious with the sun setting in front of him. not that he cared anyway, time is artificial after all.

the view in front of him was breathtaking, with the sky painted pink and orange, fading to purple as the time passes by. the cumulus clouds looking like fluffy cottons on the sky, reflecting the light from the retiring red-orange sun. it is only halfway into the horizon, where the sky and the sea meet and blend into each other, the glares from the sun mirroring through the clear blue sea that is now dyed orange due to the sky.

warm breeze ruffled his unwashed curly hair lightly, kind of welcoming him to an embrace and enveloping his entire body. he looked disheveled, well thats what you get for not taking a bath for day- was it weeks? he couldn't keep track of the time- doing nothing but laying on bed, restless. though its not only his messy hair and stinky clothes that gave off that he hasn't been doing well, it was pretty evident through his appearance as well. his chapped lips and dark circles emphasized the paleness of his skin, not due to genes nor lack of melanin (though lack of melanin contributed as well) but due to lack of nutrients and sleep. he hasnt been eating properly and drinking enough water too.

it's not like he wanted to ruin his life- no, he is known as the dreamer among his family and friends- but it's because it's getting hard go on when everything just feels too heavy and you're too tired to get up from your bed but also there's too much thought in your head to even sleep or focus. he is also a known overthinker in his circle of friends.

looking at it from a third person angle, keiji's stressed form perfectly contrasts the beautiful place he's currently at. he gathered up his last bits of strength to go to his happy place to think clearer about what he wants to do, what he wants to happen and what should he do to achieve those.

he was thinking deeply about everything and nothing in particular when he saw a flock of black birds (were they crows? he doesn't know much about birds) flying toward his direction and his attention shifted to them.

" do birds even remember where they were born? " he thought to himself.

to think of it, don't they fly a lot? do they even miss they original nest? does that even matter to them? he doesn't know the answer to those questions and probably will never know. do they even feel lonely?

do they feel as lonely as i am ?

nah, probably not.

the flock of birds landed on the same cliff he was sitting on, he's probably only a meter away from the closest bird. there were about 8 of them and they all chirped and pecked, looking for food to eat. akaashi found it funny, because even though how much they cry, nobody will come to them and give them food.

he noticed one of them was limping, dying, and crying harder than the rest of the flock. he approached it slowly, trying hard not scare it, then carefully grabbed it to check the injury. unfortunately, he seemed to disturb the rest of the flock and they flew away, without the injured bird. the bird on his hand cried louder, but it cannot chase the other for he did not just injure his left leg, but also his left wing.