A Reason To Love

Ch. 27

Hello my loves! I am so sorry this update took longer than I expected to get out! This snow caused some rolling power outages but have no fear I am back! I hope you are all safe and warm! Enjoy<3
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"Where are you? Why didn't you answer your phone?" Elises panic filled voice fills the line. Will had handed me the phone when he saw my moms name flash across the screen.

"I'm with Will. What's going on?" I answer sleep still riddled me.

"Cam....-" Her voice falters and just like that I sprung forward into a sitting position.

"What? What is it?" My voice shakes. My heart thumping wildly inside my chest.

"It's your dad." She didn't have to say anything else. I dropped Wills phone on the bed and bolted like my ass was on fire. I scurried around the room to find my clothes.

"Cammy what's wrong?" Will follows me getting dressed into his slacks and button up shirt not bothering to put on his jacket.

"I-I don't know. It's my dad." Was all the words I could form my voice a hushed whisper.

The whole drive to my house I was numb. My mind going a million miles an hour. Something was wrong. Very wrong.

Will parked the car outside of my house. The scene in front of me scarred me for life. There was an ambulance, a fire truck, and two police cars all with their sirens blaring and lights flickering shining casting shadows on the neighboring houses.

I rushed up the sidewalk towards the house ignoring the calls from the police officers telling me not to go inside. My feet carry me faster and away from them. Inside the house I bolt towards my parents room and collapse to the ground. My dad laid frozen in his bed, lifeless. My mom stood beside his bed tears streaming down her face. Elise trying and failing to soothe my mom.

The officers came into the room and the paramedics mumbled something and suddenly all the sounds of the sirens went mute.

"Cammy!" Will crouched down in front of me trying to talk to me but I couldn't hear a damn thing he said.

"Mam we've called the funeral home, they are on their way. Do you want us to stay with you?" The paramedics asked my mom but she remained silent.

"I'll have an officer stay out front. I'm sorry for your loss." His words cause something in me to snap. A guttural sob escaped my lips as I felt my world crash down around me. My dad was dead.

I pushed myself off the ground before throwing myself in bed with my dad. I clutched his body which was somehow still warm.

"Oh daddy! I'm so sorry I wasn't here!" I cried grabbing the front of his shirt between the balls of my fists.

"Cam there wasn't anything you could have done." My mom whispered and I snapped my head her way.

"I could have called 9-1-1 sooner if I was here!" I argued back feeling hot wet tears slide down my face.

"Cammy you can't blame yourself-" Will rubbed my arm trying to comfort me.

"Don't touch me! If I wasn't having sex with you at the hotel I would have been here! I missed his last moments because I was with you! I lost so much precious time with him because I was with you!" He flinched away and I know my words had hurt him but in this moment I didn't care.

"He wanted you to go. He wanted you to be happy Cammy. Don't you get that?" Will wraps his arms around me tightly but I flail around in his arms slamming my fists into his chest which did not faze him.

"Let me go!" I screamed thrashing around and he sighed before he let me go. I pushed myself out of my dads room and through the house. Yanking open the back door I marched to the flower bed where not too long ago we planted these beautiful flowers. I sat down in front of them for while trying to wrap my head around the fact that my dad was gone but all I felt was numbness.

"They're here to pick up your dad. I just wanted to make sure you're okay." Elise plopped down on the ground next to me.

"I'm not." I admit feeling more tears stream down my face. I couldn't watch them wheel my dads body away. It would be too much.

"I know you're blaming yourself for spending time with Will but he's right. Your dad always wanted you happy. You have never been happier than you are with Will. I'm sure your dad loved seeing you smile and genuinely happy Cam. Don't blame Will." She's right. Of course she's right. That doesn't make the pain I feel go away but I shouldn't lash out at Will.

"I just can't believe he's gone." I mutter feeling my heart tighten inside my chest.

"Me either. Let's get inside. Maybe take a shower and get in some comfortable clothes." I could only nod.

By the time I get inside my mom throws her arms around my neck whispering soothing words into my ear.

"We are going to get through this baby. I promise. We have to, for him." I nod knowing she's right. I just need some time to wrap my head around this, to process everything.

"I'm going to take a shower." She kissed my cheek and released her hold on me. I went up to my room and into my en suite bathroom and turn on the water as hot as I could stand it and stepped into the shower still in my prom dress. I collapsed to the ground and curled into the fetal position and cried. I cried until I had nothing left to give, my tear ducts were dry.

I cried for losing my dad. I cried because I felt like life had just ripped me in half. I cried because the best man I have ever known was now gone.

I didn't hear anyone come into the bathroom. I felt someone climb in the shower behind me and pull me into their lap.

"Oh baby I'm so sorry." Wills voice wavered as I felt his body shake. I look up at him from in his lap and see tears sliding down his face and it's my undoing. I know he's hurting too. He and my dad were close. We all are. I shouldn't push him away. My dad would absolutely hate that and I love him too damn much for that. It would only hurt me even more.

"I'm-" I go to apologize but Will shook his head and just held me tighter. I can't help but wonder if he's having a sense of nostalgia from losing his mom. God I can't imagine losing anyone else I care about. We clung to one another in my shower both fully dressed neither of us saying a word just simply holding on to one another.

"There's nothing I nor anyone else can say to ease your pain. Losing a parent is fucking awful Cammy. Just know if I could take your pain away I would. I hate seeing you hurting it freaking kills me but I will make sure you're okay." How did I get so lucky to have someone like him? Someone willing to be with someone like me who had a sick parent after he had lost his mom to the very same damn thing?