A Reason To Love

Ch. 14

"Did I or did I not say that you two liked each other after family game night?" Elise plopped down on my bed with the latest copy of People magazine. She is always keeping up with the latest fashion trends and celebrity gossip meanwhile I couldn't care less.

I told her about the picnic with Will and the kiss and now we are here sitting in my room talking about my feelings for Will.

"You did, you can say I told you so if that would make you feel any better." I grabbed a bottle of hot pink fingernail polish off of my dresser and started to paint my fingernails.

"I should but I wont."

"I am scared though Eli. You've seen the guy! He is way out of my league."

"You always doubt how incredible you are! You are beautiful, naturally beautiful. You don't need fancy clothes and makeup to show your beauty. You are the strongest person that I know. You bring so much to the table and any guy would be the luckiest guy in the world to date you." She smiled softly at me letting me know she was being honest.

"We just have so much in common. We have been spending so much time together and have gotten to know each other. He shares his private life with me well some of it anyways. He lost his mom five years ago...to cancer." I tell her watching her to see her reaction. When I told her about Will I left that part out. I didn't feel the need to tell her plus it's not my business to tell.

"Oh my...I had no idea! That is awful! I hate that you guys have that in common but it makes sense why you two have gotten so close. I am glad that you have him to talk to about the whole sick parent thing. While your dad is like a second dad to me it's not the same."

"It's easy to talk to him about it because he has been through it. I am scared to get close to him Eli." I admit. She is my best friend in the entire world, she is the only person I can talk to about this.

"Why?" She closes her magazine turning facing all of her attention on me.

"I am scared to get close to someone else. I am scared that I am going to get too attached and he will leave. I am scared because I know I don't have much time with my dad, losing him is going to crush me. I am scared to get too closed to Will and losing him too. I am just scared." I sigh as I let what has been bothering me so much off of my chest.

"Cam it's okay to be scared. You are on an emotional roller coaster but I don't think you should push Will away because you are scared to get hurt. When you agree to date someone you give them the power to hurt you and hope like hell that they don't. You two have so much in common and I seen the way he looks at you, he really cares about you. He knows what you are going through and still wants to bring you happiness. He knows about your dad and is still sticking around knowing that you are going to be broken and he didn't run for the hills. I think you should just take it day by day and let whatever is going to happen between you two just happen. You deserve to be happy Cameron." Elise's eyes filled with tears as she spoke to me.

"You are completely right. I overthink everything. I just want to protect myself at all costs." She nods before rolling to where I was sitting on the bed and laid her head in my lap in a way that brought me comfort.

"I will always be your biggest fan. I will always be beside you no matter what you choose to do and if you two date and he hurts you I will kick his ass." Her voice held a warning behind her words and I know without a doubt that she was being serious.

"I love you!" I bent down and hugged her carefully avoiding messing up my freshly painted nails.

"I love you Cam." She smiled brightly as she snugged into my lap. That's why this girl is more than just my best friend she is more like a sister and I don't know where I would be without her.