Heartbreak [zjm]

16. Ferry Ride

I have never actually been on a boat before and I decided to mention that to the three boys right as we are about to get on the Ferry.

"Seriously?" Harry looked shocked. "You never told me." 

It was beautiful outside. 

The ferry was gigantic and there seemed to be a lot of people that wanted to be here too. The view was absolutely breathtaking and I felt like I was on the titanic. To my left, Louis and Harry were holding hands and simply being the adorable couple that they are.

To my right, there was Zayn. His hair was sort of falling in his face due to the wind but he was rather close to me. His thoughts seemed like they were off in the distance and I would give anything to hear him speak.

"Stunning view, isn't it?" I desperately tried to grab his attention.

"Yes, but that's not the view that I'm looking at." 

I turned my head and caught his eyes. He was staring at me and it made me gush even more. I was never like this towards a boy. I had my share of petty little boyfriends, but no boy made me feel this way.

"My view is pretty great too," I blushed. 

"Oh, how I wish you knew how I felt," he sighed.

"Why can't you tell me?" 

"Belle, if you knew how I felt about you, I would be so afraid you would think I was weird. I can't take rejection, love." 

I felt like I was going to explode of joy.

"Rejection doesn't hurt so much anymore," I admitted.

He held out his hand and I locked it in with mine.

"We will be back," Zayn said to Harry and Louis. They both looked at me with wide eyes and I shrugged. I know he had a plan to woo me tonight and to date him, but I had a feeling he wasn't going to do that tonight.

We walked to another part of the Ferry and it was less crowded on that side.

"Clearly I like you, Belle. It is so obvious, even a blind man could see my love for you. I don't even know how to explain it to you, I just want to be with you at all times of the day. Before I thought I didn't have time for a relationship, but you have proved me wrong. I thought that I liked being alone, but the truth is, I didn't know what I was missing until I met you." 

Love? He loves me? I was speechless. I didn't have anything to say back to this man standing in front of me pouring his heart out.

"I can't take rejection, I want to be your boyfriend, and I'm sure you're going to leave me after this, but I just really wanted to tell you how I felt. I wasn't sure if I even wanted a girlfriend at all. You make me want to be that for you. Like Christian Grey," he referenced Fifty Shades of Grey.

Zayn was sort of like Fifty. He had his outbursts at times where it would get really heated, but I felt like he really wanted to try, for me. For us. Christian Grey was very well-liked and noticed by many girls. I can't believe Zayn hadn't noticed so many girls looking at him earlier. 

"Please say something." His eyes were closed and it looked like he was praying.

"I don't know what to say, honestly. You just summed up my feelings in that whole conversation." 

Zayn intimidated a lot of guys due to his looks, and you could tell he made girls fall.

"I'm so infatuated with you, I'm scared myself," he whispered and I looked into his dazzling eyes.

Every time I looked up at him, it was like seeing a part of myself that I had always wanted. 

A significant other.

"When I first met you, you were shy. I wasn't sure how I would even like you because we are total opposites. I like having a good time and being outgoing, but as I got to know you, I realized I was more like you. Very reserved and somewhat quiet. Zayn, you are the light of my life, and probably the best thing that has happened to me. I can't imagine being without you and it's crazy how much as changed. I thought I had my whole life together, but then you came, and flipped it around." 

"I also love that you included Christian Grey. I think you are similar to him. You are both attractive and sweet, but you have your dangerous sides. I am foolishly like Anastasia Steele. Each time you hurt me, I kept running back to you. I wanted more of you, and I still do," I hope that he got that message.

"Well, Belle Evans, would you like to be my girlfriend?" 

"Of course I would." 

= This was so short but it's only because it's Thursday night and I love this story. I had to leave y'all somewhere! Please like this chapter and comment on it, if you liked/disliked it. They are moving on to greater things! :) =

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