𝐢 𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐝𝐨 ⋆ 𝗯𝗲𝘀𝘀𝗼𝗻

chapter one

'𝐈 𝐒𝐓𝐈𝐋𝐋 𝐃𝐎'
─  𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚘𝚗𝚎  ─

"I swear to fucking God, Corbyn," She sighed deeply after raising her voice, letting her fingertips come in contact with her temples to rub them slightly, hoping it would suppress the upcoming headache. "I know it's hard for you, but have you ever thought about how fucking hard it is for me?!"

He let out a groan before letting his arms fall back down to rest beside his body, hand reaching up to pinch the bridge of his nose. Corbyn closed his eyes for a second before looking back up at her, noticing how Zara was biting her lip harshly to refrain herself from crying and breaking down right in front of him.

"I'm so sorry baby," He sighed softly, feeling how his anger was replaced with guilt, "It's just- we're finishing up the album and it takes a lot of time."

Zara sighed softly, her eyes shifting from where her gaze was set onto the ceiling to where Corbyn was standing about a feet away from her. She knew he was working incredibly hard and that was the cause of him being home less often than he usually was.

Long nights and early hours without him made her feel alone, their apartment suddenly so much bigger and more silent when Corbyn wasn't around. It was as if a light had been switched off whenever he was at the studio at Daniel's place to record his verses for the new album, and this light would switch back on when the brunette returned home.

Normally, Zara would wait for him until he came back home, no matter what time that was. She would sit on the couch with a large and fluffy blanket to keep her warm as the hours ticked by slowly- it usually being around three when he would finally return home. They'd talk about their day as Corbyn let himself get warm underneath the blanket she was wrapped in, letting him be the small spoon as her soft and small hands ran up and down his shoulders and back in the hopes to get rid of the stress.

At this time -around seven months later- Zara found her boyfriend staying at the studio until seven in the morning, causing her to miss him when she went to work at six. Being a young nurse was already hard, and the fact that Corbyn wasn't there to wish her good luck and give her an assuring kiss before she left for work made her heart shatter every time she had to go through one of those lonely mornings.

There were also times that Corbyn was too tired to drive home and he'd crash at Daniel's with the boys. At first, Zara was fine with it and understood they had to work hard for their first self-written album to make it as perfect as they could. Sure, she knew all of them were big perfectionists when it came to their own work and they'd do anything to make this album a masterpiece.

This all meant that Corbyn stayed away from home most days of the week, and their relationship was the thing that suffered from it the most. The lack of communication, intimacy and love filled moments were things that made her think about the fact if their relationship was even worth suffering so much for.

"I know," She mumbled, a sigh following from her lips, "It just drains me out too- it drains out the relationship, Corbyn."

Her words hit him like a truck, his full first name falling from her lips was something he had never heard before. From when they met, Zara had always called him by the nicknames she made up for him - as well as the pet names of course. He knew she was completely serious about it, and the look on her face just confirmed it all.

The tears she was holding back minutes before, were now silently rolling down her cheeks as she stared out of the window. The weather outside was just as chaotic as the fight they just had, her mind going blank when she stared at the droplets of rain trickle down the large window.

Corbyn came up beside her, unsure of what to do to make her feel less exhausted than she was. He couldn't find the right words to say, and so he wrapped an arm around the smaller girl's shoulders. His chest was pressed against her back as he held her close, pressing small kisses onto her temple with an apology in between them.

Zara instantly relaxed in his grip, one of her hands holding onto his arm while the other one reached for his grasp to tangle their fingers together. There weren't many words spoken between them two apart from Corbyn dropping apologies here and there, but she was fine with that. She just needed him to hold her because that's what she missed most about him. His overall presence.

Corbyn's lips trailed down from her temple to her cheek, kissing the salty tears away before he moved on to pepper light kisses behind her ear and onto her neck just seconds after. He felt how his girlfriend relaxed even more, letting him brush the blonde strands away from her neck to have easier access to plant his kisses onto her skin.

"I love you," He murmured, lips brushing the nape of her neck before he lightly bruised the skin by giving her the smallest love bite on her favorite spot.

"Corbyn," She breathed, slowly turning around to come face to face with him, his ocean blue eyes looking down at her with a hint of mischief glazing them. It caused her to send him a grin before she sighed softly and brushed her hair behind her ears, lightly pushing him backwards while keeping eye contact.

There was a moment when he was slightly confused as to what she was doing, but when he saw her reach for the hem of her oversized shirt to throw it to the side seconds later - Corbyn knew that she was doing what they'd usually do after a fight. They'd let loose of every single thought and emotion and just wanted to be as intimate with each other as possible.

"What're you looking at, loser?" She joked, a playful grin on her face as she reached for the button of her jeans, slipping the denim down her tanned legs just seconds later.

"There is literally no better view," He told her in a hushed voice after stepping forward to place his hands onto the bare skin of her waist, "Then watching you strip down after we argue."

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THATS IT THE FIRST CHAPTER IS UP
honestly so damn excited for this one you guys have no idea hehe

ILYSM and consider this my valentines gift for you bc you're perfect and i adore you 🥰