Pretty in Pink ~ San

Chapter 15

*5 Months Later*
Our baby is coming right when our doctor had predicted. San rushes me to the hospital and here I am, in the birthing and labor room in the hospital. It's like that K-drama, It's Okay Not To Be Okay, but in real life. Anyways, we wait as I go into labor, having our baby boy. San and I decided that if we're going to have kids, that we raise them in South Korea first, then move to America, if we want to, later. That was our plan, anyway, so we are having our baby in Seoul. After about 12 to 13 hours of being in labor, later our baby son is here. Our Kai Elijah Choi is finally in the world. When we saw him, San knew we should name him Dae-yang, after the ocean, because truly, there would be an ocean between San and I if I didn't decide to stay in Korea. His name will carry that meaning for the rest of his life.

Now that Dae-yang is here, I'm so, so happy. I almost didn't make it through this birth because it was incredibly painful. Thankfully, the doctors hopped me up on pain medication so that it would hurt less. I hold Dae-yang in my arms for the first time and I cry. I never knew I could love another human being like I love San, but Dae-yang is different. He is my first son, my first child. The result of mine and San's love is Dae-yang. I want him o remember, yes he is different, yes he has many cultures running through his veins, but that shouldn't be the thing that should define him. He should take that he is half Korean and 1/4 Filipino, a little less than a 1/4 German, Spanish, etc, and be proud of it. I know there are already many, many half Korean kids running about out there. I don't want Dae-yang to feel left out because he is different from the other kids. I hope that when he grows up, he will find other kids like him, and form a friend group from there.

Now with Dae-yang in the world, comes registering him. He was born on January 20, 2032. That makes me 28, turning 29 this November. This makes San 32, turning 33 this July. It is almost hard to believe that San is past his 20's and into his early 30's. I was so used to seeing a young and spry San, that seeing him now, is a big strange, but I'm used it. What matters is that Dae-yang is here now. We couldn't be happier to have him in the world now.

We go back to our roomy apartment, because San is at the status that he is, and so am I, we are able to afford the same apartments that BTS resided in; THE HILL suits. These apartments are luxurious and really spacious. They are like a house, but still classified as an apartment. More specifically, it is further classified as condominiums. They are really fancy, and I can't believe we live here now. I went from living in a itty-bitty town in the middle of nowhere, Nevada, in a 4-level house, to this. It's such a ginormous condo, and just wow. I would never be able to get used to the famous life, but this is how I live now.

We settle Dae-yang down into his crib. He is already crying, but we are able to comfort him, trying to figure out what's wrong. San talks to him in a baby voice, speaking the cutest, most aegyo Korean possible. Dae-yang giggles at his papa, probably thinking he is cute. Our Dae-yang is the cutest, most adorable thing in the universe. I am so glad to have him in our lives. I can't believe he's even real. Like, man. I will never get over just how cute Dae-yang is. San is so emotional over how cute his little son is. I bet this feeling will never go away. For as long as Dae-yang is a little baby, we will cherish him. We will guide him to become the man he is destined to be.

*About 4 Months Later*
I find out that I am pregnant once again. I feel like this time around, I am hoping and praying for a girl, but if it's another boy, then that's okay too. A few more months into the pregnancy and my prayers have been answered, we are having a baby girl. When we heard that we are having a girl, I was really tempted to name her after San's sister because I really like her name, but San said we should give her the name for sea, river, lake, or some body of water. Which ever sounds prettier, we choose it. Here are the words:
•Sea - 해상(Hae-sang)
•River - 강(gang)
•Lake - 호수(Ho-su)
•Stream - 개울(Ga-eul)/시내(Si-nae)
•Pond - 연못(Yon-mot)
Out of these names, I liked Haesang and Gaeul. We ended up choosing Haesang. So, her full name, in Korean, is Choi Haesang(최해상). The English girl names I chose are these:
•Chloe
•Aurora
•Sydney
•Nicole
•Krystal
San and I both agreed that we like the name Krystal, so her full English name will be Krystal Ann Choi. I gave her my middle name because I think it works well with her name.

Now with her names decided, we just need to wait for her to be born. San is excited to be having a daughter because he is looking forward to seeing what she will look like. I bet she will be really pretty as well. Many of our fans think that our kids will grow up to look very good, as mentioned before. I think so too. We will just need to see what they look like when they grow up.