Secrets and lies

Chap.23

Hayden's POV

I woke up with something strong over my waist.I turned around and saw harry facing my way.

I widened my eyes remembering the events that took place last night.

How did he end up sleeping in my bed though?

I quietly got out of his grip and went to the washroom to freshen up.

When I was done, I went downstairs and into the kitchen to make myself a bagel with cream cheese and tea.

I left some hot water in the kettle just incase harry might want some.

As I ate at the dining table my mind drifted off to harry and i kissing last night.

I don't know what took over me but I just went straight for it and it was the best thing ever.

His lips were soft yet ruff and his hold on me was like he was scared I was gonna slip away. Also the way he kept tangling his hand in my hair. We had to break the kiss a few times cause he was pulling it but we always ended up laughing.

What does this mean for us now?

Is it gonna be awkward again?

Are we gonna be together?

Are we gonna act like it never happened?

Memories from what my mom said the other day kept floating through my mind.

"Don't get too distracted"

She's right. If we end up dating and get distracted, we might forget the real reason that we're here and not be prepared for anything.

I think we should just stay the way we are right now just until this whole thing is over and If I'm still alive.

"Good Morning" Harry's raspy voice greeted.

I looked over at him and his hair was damp so I'm guessing he just came out of the shower.

"Good morning." I smiled taking a long sip from my tea." UH there's hot water in the kettle if you want some tea."

"Thank you." he smiled and went to the kitchen.

I quickly finished my bagel and drank some more of my tea.

He came back out with a mug of tea and a granola bar.

He sat right across from me at the table and it was awkwardly silent.

I hummed to the tune of a song in my head while he ate his granola bar.

"So how was your sleep?" He asked breaking the silence.

"It was good. You?"

"It was also good." he smiled before it went back to silence again.

I'm just gonna get right to the point.

"So about last night." We said in unison.

"You can go first." I offered.

"It's fine. you can go first." he smiled.

"Ok. So last night was a mistake. No it wasn't a mistake. I liked it but it can't happen again." I said straight forward looking everywhere else but his eyes.

His smile quickly fell and he frowned.

"Uh- well if that's what you want."

I nodded and answered. "That's what I want." I answered but didn't fully mean it.

"Why though?" He asked.

"Because if we continue. We're gonna get distracted on what we are really here to do."