You Don't Know Me (Punk Luke Hemmings)

Chapter 55: The Death of an Angel

*LACEY'S POV*

It's been few hours since we came to the hospital. Everyone's here. My parents, Luke's parents, Matt and Lola, Luke's brothers and Celeste, Michael, Ashton, Calum and Jade and also Daniel. We still don't have any idea what's going on and I'm pretty sure doctors don't have any idea as well. They refuse to talk to us and I have a really strange feeling. "Are you okay?" I hear voice behind me. "Yeah, I'm fine. I'm just, this never-ending waiting makes me tired and I don't know what's wrong with my daughter" I tell to the boy with green eyes. "She'll be fine. She's strong just like her mum" he says and smiles at me. I smile back at him.

*LUKE'S POV*

I look around the hall and spot Lacey talking with him. I don't know what are they talking about, but she's smiling at him. I don't remember she would smile at me like this when we were talking. I mean, yeah, she smiled, but not like this. I'm not going to say that she wasn't happy with me, I know she was, but when he's around she's different. She always shines and always smile from ear to ear. She even remembered him when she woke up with amnesia. Yeah, she remembered him, not me. Even when I am her boyfriend, well, he was too, but I'm much longer than he was, plus I'm the father of her daughter, not him. I can't look at them anymore. I stand up "I need some fresh air" I tell my mum and walks out of the building.

I lean on the wall. I'm so blind. I never saw this before. She was right when she told me that I'm selfish, because I am. I never saw the fact that he makes her much happier than I do. Even if I would count all the times when she was happy with me, it will never beat just the one time when she was happy with him. All I ever did for her was just because of me. I was always thinking just about myself. In three weeks, we're going on our own tour and she will stay here. She'll be far away from me. There wouldn't be anything what could make her to wait for me. It's going to be six long months. I'll be miles away from her and he will be here, right next to her. He will be there for her when she will need someone. It will be him and not me. When I saw them in the hall together, I realized it's already over. It doesn't matter I love her or even the fact we have a beautiful daughter together. She will end up with him no matter what I'll do. I can fight for her as much as I can, and I know she will always choose me for some reason, but she belongs with him.

I come back just in the second when the doctor stops right next to Lacey. He tells her something and she turns around her head just to find me and I walk to them. The moment when I stop right next to them and look at the doctor, I already know. "I'm so sorry, we did everything what we could" he says. All of this is my fault. She's gone. And there's nothing left what could save us. I turn my head and see them already. She goes to him. She cries in his arms, not mine. This is all what I need to see. I walk to my mum and she immediately hugs me. "I'm sorry" she says and that's the moment when I start to cry. I just lost everything. I'm tired of fighting and losing. I refuse to fight again.

*LACEY'S POV*

He holds me tight in his arms and I'm crying with my head buried in his chest. He runs his hand up and down my back to calm me down, but it's not working. I don't even know why I did this. I can't explain why am I crying in Daniel's arms and not Luke's. I mean, since we walked in here hand in hand, he sat down right next to his mum and since then he didn't talk to me. I know it's not his fault, but I kind of blame him for all of this. I know this is not right, but I don't know what to do anymore. Why couldn't I stay in coma or rather why couldn't I die? It would be much easier.

It can be like 3am. "I need a fresh air" I say and pull away from him. "Do you want me to go with you?" he asks and I shake my head. "No, I want to be alone" I tell him and walk out of the building. I'm such a horrible person. I know that, nobody has to tell me this. I start to walk somewhere. I don't have any idea where I'm going, but I want to be alone. I just lost my little angel, I'm blaming for it someone who doesn't deserve it. Someone who did so much for me. Someone who loves me and proves it to me every single day. Someone who I can't love back anymore. I don't remember when I stopped feeling this way about him. I was just feeling sorry for him, don't ask me why, because I don't know. I just know I don't love him anymore. The moment when I woke up from coma, I thought if I'm going to pretend that I don't remember him, he's not going to do anything. Pretending to have an amnesia was the most stupid idea I ever had. What was I thinking? He never gave up on me before, why would he do it then? I stop thinking for a while and look around. I'm in the docks and suddenly it starts to rain. I look up and I see the storm coming. I run into the wooden building. It seems old, but I hope it can keep me safe. I sit down on the box and go back to my thoughts. I did a huge mistake when I recognize Daniel's voice. I was just so happy that he came. I fucking lied to the man who truly loves me. I'm the worst person in the whole galaxy. I don't deserve to live, I deserve to die. Then I hear sound and when I look up for a second, I see half balk falling down. I look around where I can run, but then I feel something heavy hits me in the head and I'm falling to the ground. I can't move. I want to scream for help, but there's no one who could hear me. I close my eyes and slowly fading into the dark world.