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Chapter 43*Ain't Wit It

Sam's POV

I should have known the peace couldn't last with me and Lil Bit! 

Almost as soon as she recovered from the girls being born she was on me about letting her go do what we had originally planned, and we argued when I let her know I ain't with the shit no more, not that I ever really was, if Imma be honest.

In theory it was a good plan, people in place that were watching Tris every move, and that snake ass bitch Ali, as well. 

Tris had been touched a few times, and every time he left that crib in the Northeast, he was touched again, until he quit venturing out! 

My peoples loved Lil Bit, and my soldiers let me know that every time he was spotted, it was on sight.
While that slightly mollified me, it also made my thirst for his demise rise to the forefront of my thoughts.
I just had to figure out a way to murk his ass, without my girl finding out.

She will be furious with me, and cant say I blame her, because after all he's done to her, retribution should be hers, shit, I should just let her do it and be there for back up just in case shit goes left.
Here's the thing though.                                                                                                        My pride wont let me, let her!

She hasn't hardly left the girls side since she was discharged and they had to stay for a little while longer.
They were having to get treatments to allow their lungs to develop more, which I knew was necessary for their continued good health, but bad for me, because every time we had to leave, or I had to force Nik to come and get a good night sleep with me, which yeah I know, selfish of me cause i cant sleep right without her, she seemed sad and lost without them.                 
When she got to feeling lonesome, her wheels started to turn and then she'd be back to being right at my neck about her handling Tris.

 I cant even distract her with sex because I ain't tryna damage her internally, no nookie for me for at least another month. I mean yeah she did give me some brains, but if I cant slide up in her after, and satisfy her, I don't even really feel happy about letting her, and then plus, she kisses my babies with that mouth! 
Like I said before, I have nothing but love and respect for my girl. 
She didn't like it when I stopped her from giving me top the other night, she initiated it and I stopped her, I couldn't even stay hard!                                                                                                                           All I kept thinking about was my girls and when I thought bout them, my soldier went down for the count!
I tried to explain my position, that my love for her grew when she became the mother of my children, but she just looked at me like I was stepping out on her, and without another word, returned to her side of the bed and silently cried herself to sleep.                    I felt bad about that and I thought about ways to make her understand my thought process, but the best I could come up with was that once awhile back, I had called myself her baby daddy, and I vividly recall her reaction to that, I hadn't fully grasped what had her ticked at the term, all my boys called they girl, if they had a kid together, "baby mammas," but she hated it.                       
 I had a new nickname for her, we had a good laugh at it, because we were visiting my sister Candace, and her kids.
We had stepped outside to puff some trees together, since we would never smoke around them.
Candace stepped out on the porch with us, saying she wondered where we got to, and that our niece Michelle piped up with, "He's on the porch with Auntie Baby Mommerz,"
We all shared a laugh at that, and the nickname stuck, she's, "Auntie Baby Mommerz" now to Michelle, who hasn't called her anything else since!     

Where she would even get the notion that I'm making time with any other chic, I can't tell you, so don't ask me, WHERE would I even find the time? Between running operations at the shop, and getting my brother ready to go on his flight, spending time at the hospital, being a dutiful son to my momma, an Unk to my nieces and nephews, running around trying to make sure all my goddamn ducks is in a row, I don't have time for another female!
We ain't even gonna talk about how I ain't even attracted to anyone but her, either. Kind of pisses me off, so right now we ain't even sitting horses.
We don't barely speak, I'm moody, and she's irked at me so we both ignoring the fuck out each other.   
I'm sure once the kids get home she'll forget all about anything else.