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chapter 30* so much going on

Sam's POV

We just have so much going on, and it's making me somewhat distant and moody.
Nik's getting discharged from the hospital tomorrow, and I can't wait till she does, but there's a few things that need to be addressed and I don't know how to even fix my face to ask her to do this.
I really don't want to, but as I said before, there don't seem to be any way around it.
I thought of mentioning it to Ceez when he calls me, but vetoed that idea quickly.
Phone calls are monitored in the joint and I knew better than to ever implicate myself or Ceez.
I thought of speaking in code, in Spanish, and asking him to keep an eye on "nuestro enemigo," which in that language, means our enemy.
It's close enough to "nuestro amigos," which means our friend.
When it's spoken rather quickly, it sounds the same.
I decided not to, it was too risky.
I really ain't like talking on the phone to begin with, I was like Paulie in Goodfellas!
I didn't want anyone hearing what I was saying, or listening to what I was being told.
So that was out.
I couldn't go myself, and that was probably for the best, cause if I laid my eyes on that cat, my hands would follow, and then I'd be right back in the joint, somethin I know terrifies my girl.
All the people I associated myself with, were or still are, felons.
I mean come on, how many squeaky clean cats would or could hang out in a circle of murderers?
Even my lawyer, Posner, was more than a little, ahhhh, influenced, by me!
He was as crooked as who he represents, he just hid it behind a veneer of polish and plaques.
He was good too, he could go in on a unmonitored lawyer visit, meaning he couldn't be recorded.
Of course Ceez an I have the same lawyer, the entire crew did.
I like Posner, I do.
He's fresh outta law school, young, hungry. I trust him, but not enough to know for certain he wouldn't use it against me and extort me.
That would lead to another body on my count, and having to get a new lawyer, and then build up a relationship with him, an ya boy just don't got that patience for it, feel me!
So, now, it was coming down to me having to ask Nik to do this.
I considered all my other options and finding I have none, I began by looking at her, sitting there, looking beautiful, one hand on her belly as she laughed as Fancee said something funny.
Fancee excused herself, got up to go use the bathroom.

Nik glanced at me, and then said, "Ok, what's wrong?"
I held my gaze steady on her and asked, moodily "Why you think that there is?"
She looked incredulous and said "Hello! This is ME you're talking to!
You been real quiet and cranky and yeah, you're normally quiet, but this is different. I can feel it.
I'm going home with you, TOMORROW! You get to do all manner of freaky things to me, get good meals again. So you shouldn't be cranky or extra quiet. I haven't done anything but lay in this bed for months, so I know it's not something I did. Cmon, baby, tell me! Whatever it is, well, we will handle it!" Then, slid her hand in mine and laced our fingers together, grinning up at me impishly.
I shook my head, marveling at this creature at my side.
I could never get nothing past her, she's smart and she do know me, probably as good as I know ME.
So, I tell her about me planning to send Fancee in, to get at Ceez for me.
She's quiet a second, biting her lip and there's a strange expression on her face like she's trying not to laugh.
I don't know why she thinks this is funny at all, so I smack the bed hard, and startle her out of her thoughts.
She looks at me and says, "I'm sorry, I tried, I really did. I am trying to stay serious because this ain't funny, but I just got the craziest mental image of Fancee dressed in camouflage, hiding behind shit, creeping up on Tris, to the beat of the mission impossible theme song!" She almost screams it out, and then she completely loses it, she's laughing so hard that she is shaking with her hysterics.
I can't help myself, I crack up too, because now I have that mental image in my head as well!
Fancee rejoins us, and Nik looks at me and goes "Dooo, Doo Doo Doo Doo, Doo Doo Doo Doo!" In an on key rendition, of that movies theme music.
We had gone to see that Tom Cruise flick, when it premiered in what? 1996?