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Chapter 24* in the here and now

I returned to the house and Tris was still there, as sober as I think I've ever seen him.
He had a strange look on his face.

It was regret.

Maybe somewhere deep inside his twisted, mentally unstable mind, he knew what he does to me isn't right, that I don't deserve it, have never deserved it.
I can't help he overreacts to every little thing, is distrustful and mean.
The time in the hospital did me good, I lost my urge to get high.

It was past time to deal with what I didn't want to let myself feel.
I had to go through it to get through it and all that.

Starting with Tris
My inner me woke up and did a cartwheel!
Bout time you woke up bisssh!

"If you ever put your hands on me again, that's it, we are finished!
I put up with too much already,
I never snitch, I'm dead ass, Tris!"
I say in a serious voice and I mean it.

He looks at me, and his mouth utters the lies!
I know as a shiver goes through me, this monster in front of me has no soul.
He might say the right thing now cause he needs a place to stay but I know, the last time wasn't the last time.
And next time, I'll be gone for good.

Promise!

Tris POV

"Who in the hell this bitch thank she talking to?" I thought, but then thought again.
No I couldn't go out there.
I murdered Sunny, I might be wanted .
I need this bitch to stay on my team.
No what I really need is this whore's crib.
I hate her.
She ain't want my baby, was bout to ghost me.
I moved my mouth, but I was telling lies.

I'd smack her later.
She makes me beat the shit out her.

***Flashback ends***

"You know the rest," I finished, telling Sam, and laid back against my hospital pillows, exhausted, waiting for him to condemn me for my horrible choices.

He looked at me then and I noticed he was crying.
Silently, without even blinking, he just let the tears fall.
I went to move away because I was suddenly petrified.
I had only ever seen him cry three times and nothing nice ever occured after.
I'm not at liberty to discuss what happened, I don't snitch!
I'm also not sure what the statute of limitations are!

Suffice to say, his tears spelled trouble.
He gripped me even tighter and still didn't say a word.

I spat out, "Say something, please don't do this, don't give me the silent treatment now! You wanted to know, so now you know everything!"

I was sure this was it, this was the moment he'd lose his formidable temper and smack me.

Or get up and walk away forever.

He looked at me, with his beautiful eyes, darkest obsidian now, he said, "How?" His voice, barely above a whisper.
I looked at him, truly confused, and said "How, what?"
He leveled a look on me that I didn't need any explanation for.
He was asking me, how did I want Tris touched.
He was going to do something to him, and I knew it.
Here's the crazy part, I begged him not to have no parts in it!
As I told him, if he got caught he'd do all his back time.
He'd be away from me, away from the babies who's lives I just about died trying to save.
That he was worth more to me than anything and everything!
That the absolute mayhem he would visit upon Tris was not even worth it.
That even the Bible read, "Repay no one evil with evil. for it has been written, "Vengeance is Mine, I will repay," sayeth the Lord."

Tris would face his own karma in due time.

The gleam in his eyes didn't match his words when he said he'd let my ex live
He didn't lie.
He just never specified how long he'd let him breathe.