Hey, well today I haven't felt the best like I've been having very bad dysphoria today (if you don't know what that is I'll post the definition above) I hate my voice and I don't like how I look.
I don't want to see a girl in the mirror I wanna see a boy I just want to be able to be me without all of the bad thoughts. I'm also not out to my parents. Well I told my dad but I think he doesn't remember, my step mom also knows but she knew from the day I cut my hair she didn't say anything because she wanted me to tell her myself. Which I did a few days ago she accepts me. When I told my dad he told me that I'm not a boy and I never will be because I wasn't born in a males body.
My brother also told me that I'm just saying I'm a boy because I'm not comfortable with myself which is true in a way but not I'm the way he thinks. I'm not comfortable with my body because I don't like being a girl with boobs and everything. He says it's because I think I'm ugly and that I'm fat and I just hate myself, but I don't hate myself for that I don't even hate myself I just hate the way I look and speak.
I haven't told my mom yet because I don't know her views on it but I'm building up to it. So far my mom knows I like girls and that's it (I'm bisexual btw) but yeah she said that she accepts me but then said it's probably just a phase. My dad told me that I can be fixed if I read the Bible and I should know the difference between right and wrong.
It really sucks that this is happening, and if you have any of the same problems or just wanna talk you can always talk to me if you need someone to listen because I understand and I want to help.
Remember be yourself !!
~ have a great day, Jaiy
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