scars // johnnie guilbert

chapter 30**

[this chapter contains: making out but it's nothing too sexual.]

storm's pov:

"johnnie?" i asked under a nervous sigh.

"yeah babe?" i see him turning towards me from the corner of my eye.

but i'm still facing the ground.

i shy smile at the nickname.

"i-i've never done this before. you know um.. a relationship. can we take it slow?" i can feel my heart beating fast.

"of course we can. you're my first relationship too." he took my hand and place a kiss.

his blue eyes are shining as he's smiling wide. i returned the smile and took his hand in mine, intertwining our fingers together.

"you don't need to feel pressure on doing something you don't want. just tell me, okay princess?" he gives me a warm smile.

me, not knowing how to take compliments, i only nodded.

he understands me so much.

look grandma, i did it. i found the person who can make me the happiest, just by standing there.

"thank you for everything. you have no idea how much i appreciate everything you've done for me. for accepting me with all my ugly scars, for staying all these nights where demons could take over my mind. you never gave up on me and i'll never give up on you. it may sound cheesy, but you saved me. you gave me a reason to start living again. you really did." i let out a breath i didn't know i was holding.

my hands are now sweating and tears started rolling down my eyes.

he gave me a long hug and whisper sweet things in my ear, like he'll never leave me and i'm the only one who gets him.

johnnie's pov:

we left the park and we started walking around, going whenever. my hand holding hers and a big smile is drawn on my face. she caugh me starring at her couple of times, but i hide the blush with my hair.

we brought ice cream and started walking back to my house. after an hour or two, we arrived home and i fall backwards down the bed.

storm let out a chuckle and lay down next to me. she kissed my cheek and i'm smiling like an idiot. again, my cheeks are blushing.

i bite my lip and went to wrap her in my arms, but looks like she had other plan. she places her legs on each side of my body and her hands are resting on my chest.

i open my lips, about to say something, but she started kissing all over my neck. i closed my eyes to the feeling. i let out a gasp when she went lower and found a sweet spot behind my ear.

"o-oh?" a moan escaped from my lips.

well, that's gonna leave a lovebite, i guess. and i don't mind. i don't mind at all.

i felt her smirk to my body. she went lower and started kissing my chest. i grabbed her arms and switched our positions so i was on top of her.

i pushed her down and lock my lips with hers. her hands got lost on my hair and i place my hand on her cheek. my left arm is next to her head, supporting me.

i brush her long black hair and started placing kisses all over her neck, like she did. i left couple of lovebites and smiled to myself.

she's breathing heavily and i can feel my heart beating twice as fast. i got closer and lock our lips together.

"my beautiful baby." i swipe strains of hair out of her eyes.

"says the god himself." she compliment back with a smirk.

i blushed hard and i bet my face looks like a fucking tomato.

"i love you." i finally spoke out.

the room got silent and i'm starting to wonder if it would be best to keep my mouth shut.

"i love you too. so much." she rest her head on my shoulder.

we cuddle on the bed, covers all over our bodies, watching a movie. i ordered pizza and storm looked so happy seeing me eat. i stopped caring of my weight anymore and i tried not to cut anymore. i could just grab a market and draw something beautiful instead of slicing my skin.

she still wears bracelets like me, but doesn't have much scars anymore and i couldn't be more proud. we're both trying to cut off our bad habits and be the the best version of ourselves, for ourselves.

since my dad left, the only person i had left was mike and mom. but mike understood me the most as we were close best friends. jack is a fucking duchebag who i'd rather not to talk about.

i was happy- no. i am happy.

life was still shit sometimes, but at least we had each other and we still continue to.

storm's pov:

"i want you to keep this." he handed me one of his rings.

these last days he's wearing a bunch of rings. he has total 8 and he really loves them. well, 7 now, as he gave me a ring with a black heart and silver wings each side. this is his favorite one. i can't just accept it.

"n-no, i can't! that's your favorite one!" i snapped, pushing his hand.

"it's yours now.. please keep it. that way i'll always be with you, even when i'm miles away from you." he placed the ring on my 4th finger.

it's really beautiful and i hate him for being so sweet. i was almost ready to cry. goddamn.

"it's so beautiful, really. thank you." i smile, admiring the ring.

"were you always that sweet tho, or did something change these last months?" i giggle, poking slightly on his shoulder.

"i am." he smiles proudly.

"alright sweet boy, wanna go get something to eat?" i take his hand in mine.

he nodded.

he peck my lips and we walked to the living room. we put on our shoes, take our jackets and i took my stuff, aka phone and money.

i kissed him once i locked the door and by the look on his face, i can say he was at least, surprised. he asked me why, but i just shrugged my shoulders and smiled.

sometimes i get anxious about this relationship and need my mom's advice. i miss her, but i know she doesn't give a fuck about me. come on, the woman clearly didn't want to deal with me, or my dad. it's like, she told me i was a mistake in front of my face!

i was 15 when she left. but i have johnnie now and i couldn't care less about her. dad is being really supportive and he even let him sleep over whenever he wanted to. as long as we don't do anything. for fucks sake dad...

other than that, my life's being a rollercoaster. some bad things happened, but many good things happened as well.

i stopped cutting. johnnie was finally eating well. he stopped cutting too. i made it. he made it. WE made it.

i don't believe in god, but i'm thankful for johnnie. he found me in a really dark room and got me out.

i hope i never lose him.

hey emos! this is the end, sadly and i almost tear up writing it 😩😩

THANK YOU VVV MUCH for reading my fanfiction, it means a lot to me!!

i had a blast writing and you guys kept me going! 🥺🖤

ahhhh i hate goodbyes eww :(
i don't know if i'll ever write another fanfiction, but you'll def see it on my profile if i do so xD

please watch after yourselves and your loved ones because times are hard.

*in johnnie's voice*
STAY HAPPY NOT CRAPPY. LIFE'S A BITCH DON'T QUIT. PEACE OUT THUG PUGS!!

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