Destined To Be.

Chapter 26

James

3 days later

Home!!

I'm finally home and my emotions are all the over the place. The moment I stepped my foot on the tarmac , I knew I was glad to be back.

We arrived late last night, I was absolutely to exhausted to go over to the Khans and surprise them. Tommy and I just cleaned ourselves up after a light snack of sandwiches then headed straight for bed.

The house is exactly as I have left it. Apart from Mrs Khan coming over to dust and clean once every other week , it's as if I have landed in a time warp.

First thing first, I need to do a heck of a lot of DIY to sort the place out. I've come to realise that I need to make a fresh start with my son here and living in the past is not going to do me any favours.

Is that so?

My inner self scoffs at me?  Okay aside from still being in love with Ayla, I am more than capable of moving upwards and onwards.

Well keep telling yourself that mate!!

I refuse to listen to my taunting inner voice , so with one final look at Tommy who is knocked out and sleeping In my parents old room I make my way to my bedroom .

Upon entering the room a wave of nostalgia hits me fast and hard, I almost stagger at the emotions bombarding me. The first thing I do Is head over to the window. I instantly look at the opposite side to see that the curtains are drawn and the lights are off.

Well what did you expect you idiot?

Good question. What on earth did I expect? I hate fucking nostalgia. It makes you think of the impossible, the raw ache that erupts when you think of the past leaves a bittersweet taste behind.

Sighing, I turn around and make my way to bed. I refuse to think of her at this time.

Nope!!!

No thoughts of a blue eyed beauty with a heart breaking smile.

Yep!!!

I'm going to close my eyes and go to sleep.

Easier said than done!!!

The moment I settled and close my eyes ,her face appears before me, blue eyes, pretty smile and all.

Great!!!

I know I'm going to bump into her one day or another. Anticipation is coursing through my body, making me restless.

Damn!! It has been a long time. I wonder how she looks now?

Does she still smile with that upturned corner of her mouth revealing those beautiful dimples? Will she still affect me after all these years!

The answer is yes to all the above.

I may not know how she feels after five years but one thing I'm absolutely certain about is my feelings for her.

Nothing has changed!

She still haunts my dreams till this day. She has always being the only one for me. No woman has ever come close. Australia was lonely at times. I went on a few dates here and there but the moment I would try to become intimate with a woman, Ayla's face will appear before me and well let's say I had to nip that in the bud and fast, for no woman would be liked to called by another woman's name whilst in the act of becoming intimate

Tossing and turning, I finally get up and make my way downstairs. I look around the open planned living room slash kitchen and decide to make a start on that fresh start I want to make for Tommy and I. With an overwhelming task ahead of me , I temporarily forget about a certain blue eyed beauty and soon I'm lost in the work before me.