Broken inside

Chapter 23

My eyes slowly opened and I looked up to see a sleeping Bucky. He made me so happy I was so happy. Then i remembered what happened yesterday. Shit. I had two options. Pretend like nothing happened or hide in my room until i am forced to leave. As much as i favoured the second option i knew i couldnt do it. My thought process was broken when I heard Buckys soft sigh. When I looked up at him his eyes fluttered open revealing his enchanting orbs. "Mornin doll."he cooed. His voice still raspy and heavy from sleep. Damn was it sexy though."Morning мій принц." (My prince in Ukranian).
Bucky furrowed his brows at me and smirked. "When did you learn Ukrainian?" He asked. I sighed knowing it was from my school. "I know loads of languages."I say as a smirk climbed back onto my lips.

"Ok I am going to test you Russian?" He asked . I smiled and said ,"конечно." (Of course in Russian). His smile increased.

"French?"

"Oui monieur."

"German?"

"Ja ich Kan."

He smirked a bit more "Japanese?" He really thought I couldnt do it didnt he.

"簡単." (Easy in Japanese.)

His eyebrow furrowed abit more he was desperate to catch me out ,"Arabic?" Oh god I definitely knew it but I wasnt as sharp on it. I paused for a while and Buckys smile grew. "Ahh its okay doll that was pretty impressive though." He said. I grinned when I found the perfect come back.

".لا تشك بي أيها الأحمق"
(Dont doubt me asshole in Arabic)

His smile dropped and he stared at me completely surprised. "How-how can you do that?" He asked wide eyed.
"At my school they injected me with this serum I have an incredible memory but apparently that wasnt good enough so they tortured me for a while." I said as my smile also dropped. "You know we need to talk about what happened yesterday."he said tilting my head up to stare at him. I quickly averted my gaze and escaped his grasp. "I need to pee." I said deflecting the subject. Bucky gave me a solemn smile but didnt press on. I liked that about him...he knew when to stop unlike Tony. Yep he is Tony now not dad.

I sighed whilst closing the bathroom door. I wished I hadn't given my blade to Bucky...I think I was just caught up in the moment that I did something irrational. I went to pee and washed my hands quickly looking up to see myself in the mirror. My glance held however as for the first time in a while I didnt have heavily sunken in eyes or dark circles. I looked calm. Once I finished washing my hands I opened the bathroom door. Bucky was gone. I scanned the bedroom. Gone. All of a sudden I felt a pair of arms wrap around my waist and I let out a small screech. Only to turn around and see Bucky with a huge child-like grin on his face. The cheeky badtard. He slowly turned his chin down to give me a soft kiss. It was. Hmm I dont even have the words to describe it. Perfect. "Come on моя принцеса let's get breakfast." (My princess in Ukrainian.) My eyes grew wide. I knew he would make sure I properly ate but I really didnt feel like it.

After a bot of convincing we left the bedroom and walked to the kitchen area of mine, Buckys and Steve's floor. Thank god the rest of the Avengers weren't there it was just Steve drinking some coffee. Once he realised we were there his face fell a bit. I looked down trying to avoid eye contact but I felt two bigger arms surround me. Steve pulled me into a hug. He was the best 'big brother' I could have asked for. "Hey I know eating may be hard so I prepared you with fruit so it might not be as difficult." Steve said whilst walking behind the breakfast island pulling up a plate of fruit. I smiled. He meant well and I could tell they wanted to help me so I let them.

Both of the men sat me down and they both sat either side of me to make sure I didnt runor something. I picked up a bit of this orange fruit with green an red skin and eyed it. To be honest I didnt know what it was. "That is mango...try some it's nice."Bucky smiled. I smiled back.
"Can you not stare though I feel a little uncomfortable." I say as politely as possible. They quickly stop looking and turn on the tv. Okay y/nyou can do this. Just one bite. Come on. I looked at it a single tear escaped my face as I knew I couldnt throw the mango up. I slowly bit into it the sweetness of the fruit erupted into my mouth. To be fair it was nice but I felt guilty...like I didnt deserve it.

I slowly got through the five other slices and smiled. I did it. But part of me was screaming at myself to throw it up or I will get fat. My leg bounced on the spot as I tried to repress the screams. I felt a solid weight touch my leg. It was Buckys metal hand trying to stop the shaking. "Well done doll."he congratulated whilst kissing my temple. "Yeah you did good kid." Steve smiled. All I wanted to do was cry but I didnt...i did good and i was proud. All of a sudden i heard a ding which was the elevator. I looked over my shoulder to see my father aka Tony standing there he looked sad but I didnt care. The things he has said to me hurt so bad.

"Y/n I'm sorr--." He spoke before I cut him off. "Get out."I seethed. His gaze saddened a bit more. "Just let him talk doll."Bucky whispered in my left ear. I slowly stood up from the couch and walked towards him. "What have you come to make fun of my scars this time or is it my eating disorder?"I ask sarcastically. His eyebrows sympathetically draw together. "I just wanna talk." He said quietly. I looked back to see Steve and Bucky encouragingly smile. I huffed. "1 minute to talk." I frowned. His face softened as he began to talk. "I am sorry I really am and I know I am arrogant sometimes and a lil selfish but I am also scared...I guess I am scared of re disappointing you. When I said those thing...well I wasnt thinking because that has never happened to anyone close to me before and well I freaked out because...I dont want to lose you. Not again."he said kindly. I knew he meant it but he needed to know it was wrong. "Its okay...well no it's not I am still very pissed off at you but I can move past it i guess." I said tears brimming in my eyes. My dads eyes softened as he drew me into a tight hug. I knew this man meant well he just wasnt the best at explaining it...like father like daughter I guess.

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HEY GUYS SORRY I HAVENT POSTED MUCH RECENTLY...I HAVEMT BEEN FEELING TOO GREAT...HOPE YOU ENJOYED THIS CHAPTER. SORRY IF SOME OF THE TRANSLATIONS ARE WRONG I USED GOOGLE TRANSLATE ON THE JAPANESE AND ARABIC AND UKRAINIAN.

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