Finally alone and with access to a shower I decided to do so. First I needed to find some new clothes since mine were gross about two weeks old. I searched for some clothes until I looked into the wardrobe...the most logical place of clothing. I opened it to see a large array of clothes...of course there was alot its Tony Stark it's his personality trait. I grabbed a long sleeved black hoody and leggings. Luckily it was winter so I had an excuse for long sleeves and full length trouser. Oh god what about the summer. No I would be gone by then... they probably would have kicked me out. Got sick of me.
I climbed into the piping hot shower I liked it unnecessarily hot the burning sensation felt good. All I could see were my ugly scares that engulfed my body. They were horrible. I however couldnt stop. I grabbed my razor of the side and looked at it. Tears mixing with the shower water dropping down my face. I dragged the razor horizontally across my arms. I couldnt stop. 1. 2. 3. 4. 5. 6. 7 new scares. The release felt good yet it hurt so much. I deserved it though. I mean I have done some terrible shit in my life time. The blood trickles down ny arm and down the plug. I did too much however. My vision started wavering but before I could loose too much more blood I quickly wrapped my old shirt around my arm and applying pressure.
After I realized my mistake I quickly got out the shower shirt still wrapped around my arm. I threw a dressing gown hung up on the bathroom door disguising the t shirt hiding my recent cuts. I ran to the door. I needed bandages. NOW. I call through the door. "BUCKY." I say hiding my quivering voice. I knew the door was secretly locked. In a moments notice I saw my door fling open as I stood back. "Hey are you okay" he said flustered. "Yes yes do you know where I can get bandages from?" I say trying to come up with an excuse as to why. "Sure," he said no questions asked. Thank god he was so oblivious to everything. He quickly jogged back and handed me a bandage. "So how is your room?"he asked politely.
"Good yes thankyou" I said with a straight smile. "Please try not to kill us again" he says giving you a warm smile.
"Promise"i said returning it.
I dont know what overcame me but I pulled him into a huge hug. I could hear him slightly gasp before he hugged me back. "Thankyou Bucky" I say releasing him from the hug "you have been so kind to me I dont know why but thankyou." To be honest I just really liked how I got to hug this absolute beauty of a man. "Sometimes all you need is a friend doll." He said innocently. Did he just call me doll... holt fuck that felt good...like really good. With that he walked away. What is this feeling... I havent felt it before. It feels weird but before I could think anymore I forced myself to go to bed.
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