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If Only

Summary// You and Draco are best friends since day one...he fell for you but you didn't feel the same...

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The music started and it was magical. I can't help but cry as I looked into his eyes. As if they are telling me how much they love me. I smiled, even chuckled as he made his speech.

I wiped my tears away. My heart beats faster than ever. Not because of joy...but because of pain.

I wiped my tears away as I watch my best friend, Draco Malfoy, kissed his bride Astoria Malfoy, neé Greengrass.

Everyone clapped for them, including me. Soon we were moved to the reception. Everyone enjoyed their night, while I drink my pain away.

"Y/n! There you are!" I heard very familiar voice that I don't want to here it at this moment. I put on my fake smile and hugged

"So happy for you Dray, congratulations. Take good care of her!" I said, lightly hitting his shoulders. His smile melted my cold heart yet, I can still feel the pain.

"Dance with me, I need to dance with my beat friend too, you know" he said to me, I didn't bothered to respond back because I know, in myself I will hurt myself again.

We both danced, and he kept talking about how he can see his future with her, I bit my lips, to refrain my tears from spilling, but every word that came out from his lips... It tore me apart.

"And we were planning to make you, our child's godmother"

"I'm so sorry Draco" I said looking at him, I stopped dancing and he looked at mr worriedly rather than confused

"Was it too much?"

"N-no... I...I need to go... I'm sorry" I said, running away from the crowd. My tears fell down as I took each step. I sobbed as I apparated to my house. I fell on the floor and cried.

If only.. If only I knew what my heart was telling me back then.

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Months have past...3? No...8... 8 months have passed since the last time I talked to Draco. Whenever we bumped into each other in the Ministry, I always avoided him even if he tried to make a conversation with me.

I just can't stand, the fact that I am heartbroken and it was my own fault. Maybe if I returned his feelings back then none of this will happen.

"With your gaze can mutter the killing curse now" I looked up and saw Ginny Potter. I chuckled and smiled.

"Yeah...maybe I should be a dark wizard?" I joked and she chuckled softly. She sat on the sofa and held my hand

"How are you?" She asked me, I shrugged and closed my eyes.

"Tired...heartbroken...mentally unstable. But I am keeping it together"

"I know you y/n/n. I saw the way you looked at Malfoy, in his wedding. The way your eyes wish that it was you in her place..Please don't shut yourself out"

"It's just that...it's so painful..I know it's been years now but, the pain was still there" I sobbed, she pulled me into a hug and rubbed my back

"And If only I listened to my heart back then" I sobbed even more. The door flew open and Draco came in. I wiped my tears and looked at me.

"Who hurt you?" He asked me, forcing me to face him, I didn't answered and avoided his gaze.

"I...I should go...Ginny needs help"