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I hate to say it

Summary // You told Draco about your feelings, but he was scared to love you.

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Flashback

Year 3

"You what? Are you mental?" He asked as he slowly approached you. You nodded in disagreement and smiled at him

"Why can't I love my enemy?" You asked and he laughed in disbelief. He couldn't believe that those words were coming out from you

The girl he always bullied and make fun of.

"You are mental. You seriously are mental" He hissed and left you. You sighed and picked up the note you gave him. You smiled at yourself and looked up in the bright blue sky

"At least, I tried" you mumbled and left.

Year 4

"Hey, you okay?" You heard a very familiar voice. You smiled and quickly wiped your tears and faced him.

"Yeah, why wouldn't I?" You asked him. He say down right next to you and sighed "Why aren't you giving up?" He asked and you chuckled of the thought

"I wonder that too. Maybe because I don't want to. Or maybe because I can't help it" you said and he slightly chuckled at your comment.

"How about you? Why you can't return your feelings?" You asked and he mumbled inaudible. You shrugged it off and sighed

"I better get going" you whispered and left. You heard him calling your name but you didn't dare to look back.

Flashback ends

Year 6

You sighed as you looked at Draco. He looked so worse, and all you wanted is to give him a hug. But he chooses to avoid you.

You hate the feeling. You hate the fact that you're still into him, you know the consequences but you don't care.

"Ms. L/n? Are you with us or not?" Professor McGonagall asked you, snapping at your own thoughts

"I'm sorry Professor" you mumbled and she nodded. She continued to teach her class, but you didn't listen.

Once her class ended, you followed Draco into the Astronomy Tower.

You can hear his faint sobs, your heart broke into two. You slowly approached him. Trying not to scare him.

"Why?" He asked, he turn around and you saw his eyes. It was pure guilt and anger. There's a regret painted on his face

"I don't know what you're talking about" you lied. You knew what he was talking about. You gulped and he held your hands and fell on his knees.

"Dray" you called him but he didn't listen. He just cried there.

"I hate saying it. I really hate it. Why? Cause I hate to say okay, and let my heart hurt you. I really hate to say, everything's fine when I can hurt you in many possible ways" he confessed and you stood there, fighting your tears.

"I love you" you mumbled, and he looked at you. You kneeled down and wiped the tears in his eyes and smiled

"I'm scared. I'm scared of everything Y/n. You know my situation. You know about my father"

"I don't care. I don't care about you father, he doesn't give you a damn. And I'll wait even if it will hurt me in many possible ways"

"Why do you always find a positive side?" He ask you and you chuckled. You lightly peck his lips and pressed your forehead into his

"I hate saying it too. Saying I love you, to you when we both know the consequences. I hate admitting it to myself that, I cannot get over you. So maybe that's the reason, why I see positive things" you whispered and smiled at him. He hugged you and you hugged him back.

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Short imagine. I was running out of ideas. But don't worry I'll update this! Just busy with school stuff.